Tuesday, November 10, 2009

TMI

1. I lost my virginity at 18, in the back of a car, on prom night. Where and when did you lose yours? :( Actually I had anal sex first on his living room floor, I think we first actually did it in my bed though... lets just say not real memorable.
2. I think my ass is my best sexual feature. What is yours? I guess I would have to go with cleavage. However I think my eyes are a nice feature as well as I have gotten a lot of compliments on my calves.
3. A recurring theme in my fantasies is being slammed up against the wall. Do you have a recurring fantasy or a theme to your fantasies? ropes or chains and forced orgasms... totally yummie
4. I love watching guys masturbate. Do you enjoy watching others (a partner or a stranger) masturbate? I like it when he masturbates on me but other than that I think that it would be more fun watching a girl and find out "how" she does it. Guys are pretty much just wackin' and that is it ya know?
5. I hate when guys are quiet in bed. I like to hear you moaning as you cum. Do you like you partners quiet? Are you quiet? I love hearing him moan as he cums and I love it when he talks to me and says naughty things. I am probably more quiet than I want to be due to kid factor >.<
6. I love playing with nipples. Do you having your nipples played with? I love playing with all things LOL, yes I like them played with and then some *wiggles eyebrows* clamps anyone?
7. My ‘number’ is between 15 and 25. What is your 'number'? My number is still trying to figure out what the number means so I can give an answer :D

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Real Minds Want to Know

I cant figure out why sometimes the smart balls stay where they are supposed to and sometimes they wanna slip out and drive me crazy :( Its like my PC muscles are having their own PMS or something!

I have also found that blow jobs are a lot faster if you fuck his fingers while sucking :) Followed by "hot sauce" and a hitachi O... and another question... Why can't the heat go away after the O! Its no fair that it still keeps burning >.<

Rituals impending... that is AFTER he finds his lost dice :D

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Ball Pride

I am very proud of myself. Since finding my balls I have had them in for 3 days in a row... around the 3 hour or more area for time. Rule is to have them in for when Sir comes home from work and he decides when they come out. My goal is to keep them in place and get smaller, heavier ones soon.

Drawback is losing concentration a little more often because sometimes the inner balls moving around make me go insane and fidget, or going down stairs... other times you kinda forget they are there... but that is what makes those balls moving around so totally amazing.

PC muscles of steel is my goal :)

We are working on a dice ritual. I am anxious to start it. :)

We also have been working on getting kids out of the house and into the real world... and now they seem to be moving back. It hampers play time way too much and makes me want it so much more *sigh* I find my self lost in thought to him whipping my ass with the cord of rope while he had a vibrator on my clit until I came... I came so friggin hard I was amazed.

I need amazement!

Life gets funny because Sir doesn't always understand why I like him NOT letting me come. Whats the allure. Feeling like a used slut can be intoxicating... much more than alcohol itself.

Friday, November 6, 2009

Very Smart Balls

The first time I was with him I remember laying on the floor with him standing over me, I was in kind of a long nightgown with nothing underneath... he stood over me and undid his belt buckle and his pants.. then the sound of the zipper before he dropped his pants and took me.

Until that moment I never realized what the sound of the zipper could do for me, or the vision of the belt coming off.

Last night he kind of threw me over the bed, spread me open and slipped out the ben-wa balls very slowly, I imagine he watched them kind of plop out of my pussy. They are the smart balls with the string to pull them out.

Then I heard it, the zipper... and it blew me out of my mind. He pushed me down harder on the bed and took me. I didn't come and... well I guess that was the right thing because I got off twice while he was at work.

Why is it that doing all that made me feel more womanly? Home pushing down on my as he rammed himself into me, he would lean back and I would get chills thinking about him watching his dick fuck me silly. I don't know if he was but my head sure enjoyed thinking he was. He felt huge like he was trying to fuck through my pussy as far as he could go.

When I have a easier time keeping the smart balls in we will get some of the smaller heavy ones to use.

My new task is making sure that when he comes home from work the smart balls are in me, and they are to stay in me until he takes them out or tells me I can take them out.

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I forgot to mention putting the homemade ginger and pepper Vaseline on his cock. In return he took some and rubbed it into my clit, then fucked me silly till he came... stopping before I did >.<

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Feel the heat

Analyzing my brain... if you don't like it, why do you want it?

The first time that hot oil touched my puss I was cussing and I don't think I stopped for a half hour. He felt my wrath, or rather heard it. I can't even remember if we had sex after that, I sure wasn't in the mood.

So he looks at me in dismay when we buy more... when I remember to buy some.

I was thinking more about the why of it all.

It isn't that its hot that turns me on, cuz DAMN it can get HOT.

I like him putting it on me because he knows I wont like it, but he does it anyway. Its like a little signal to my brain that that burning puss, lips, butt... is HIS and not mine. Silent messages. Everything that is burning is his to control.

Accidentally hurting me... like the first time the oil was used means nothing... just makes me irritable. BUT, if he KNOWS it is going to be hot and planned for me to feel it, it is a tremendous turn on.

When he puts some on his fingers and rubs my clit till I come it is amazing... because I don't understand how I can come but he takes it from me anyway... because its what he wants. I think it is to the point now where I can almost come easier with the hot oil because it is a mind fuck.

He had me put on the gel that is supposed to excite you before we left the house once and was surprised it did nothing. It really doesn't do much and when my head is busy it really isn't going to make me horny or make me think of my pussy. I think if he would of used the hot oil the reaction would of been one he wanted.

Heat would be the perfect substitute for noisy spankings when discipline is in order. Slap some on a clit or on a butt plug before it is used... make me be "normal" in front of kids... it would work wonders!

We went to a function the other night and I was wearing a thong. I don't usually wear underwear at all so needless to say I felt more in tune to my "sex." I liked it, a lot. I want more of that :)

Friday, October 30, 2009

Super Soaker

I have decided that I like it when he picks things for me to wear, it kinda takes the guess work out of things and then I add things that I hope he will like.

Teddy with open areas for the breasts... and over the knee socks, adorned with smutty make up that wouldn't be complete without bright red lips and a high pony tail.

I soon found myself with my collar and nipple clamps, bent over a pillow with a plug up my ass. Thinking that life is grand... with music playing for just me to hear while he watched a porn.

I ummm... soaked the bed with a major G-spot orgasm. Like REALLY soaked it... O.o

We did it a few more times after that... honestly it kinda gets foggy the rest of that session though.

I am having problems cleaning all the toys though :( I cannot find the jewel plug, its like it ran away! I gotta find it cuz you can't be a anal whore with out it! At least I do not want to be ;)

I almost forgot, we made up some Vaseline/ginger/red pepper stuff but never got around to using it :( I hope this weekend....

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Podcasts

I have discovered the new BDSM/Sex world of podcasts and have been having a veddy veddy good time

*smirks*

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

LATE TMI Tuesday

1. On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest), how satisfied are you with your life? 6, I have much to work on... on a personal level. I need to tackle things, but I have found the person I love tackling them with :)
1a. On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest), how satisfied are you with your sex life? 6, I would like more kinky and more orders... and learn to do them when he orders without trying to get my way.
2. What is the easiest way for you to reach orgasm? Hitachi
3. what are 3 inevitable things about you?
1. I like to have my nipples abused during sex, even if I bitch about it
2. I hate always getting my way with a passion.
3. I could never be happy with anyone who tried to impress my parents.
4. What is your favorite sexual position? Tied haha! 19
4a. What is you least favorite sexual position? 9
5. Favorite body part/parts of the opposite (or same) sex? Thighs, hands, and a tasty looking shave pussy
6. Would you rather have you significant other (this can be a hypothetical SO) have sex with someone else or fall in love with someone else? [You have to pick one.] :( Neither... crap ummm fall in love with so we can work out what is wrong and fix things I guess :(
7. When you have a "toe-curling" orgasm, do your does curl up, or down? down
8. Name three words that:
a) get you excited bondage, rope, slave
b) make you squirm anal, collar, wider (when he makes me spread myself for him)
c) make you laugh animosity, dumbass!, fluflu bunny

Bonus (as in optional): What is you most embarrassing sexual moment? Sex and breaking wind... makes you laugh and wanna die all at once LMAO

Thong

I think it might be time to dig out the thong. I miss the feeling of being separated like that and it makes me feel naughty.

In other news, I do NOT like the epilator on my pussy, it HURTS so much more than waxing :( I hate shaving too. However the backside use isn't so bad, specially how he rubs it happy with what a smooth ass I have :)

I said no to a request, on the hopes of him forgetting punishment. So does this mean I am topping from the bottom? I mean I had reasons... I dunno. I think I need a symbol of "you are a submissive now" to make me enter the state faster for him. I want it when I want it, and that is no fair to him :(

Friday, September 18, 2009

Negotiation

Being that I got turned on by the nipple pain a couple hours later and took some pictures with the ball gag before I leaned over the bed on my handy dandy Hitachi, hiked up my dress and pretended he was behind me as I spread my ass cheeks apart and got off by grinding down on the hitachi..... I think I have lost my room for negotiation :(

Perhaps if I post a couple pics he will let me off easier?

I will start off with an old... Jewel pic that I should of posted months ago :(


He looked at his jewel placed inside my ass, and decided that he need a picture of his new jewel... with help from me. Obviously I didn't mind posing with how wet I was...

Red lips to silently tell you I will suck your cock whenever you want me too...
Drool to let you know I will always drool over you.

Through the looking glass...

My ouchie nipple :(

My nipple hurts yes... why is it that it turns me on so much when it does? I feel like I am in heat

Dear Sir... I am going to go get myself off again...

Fighting wtih a nipple

I had to have some medical tests done which included taking out my nipple rings.

Well I kept forgetting to put them back in... which is my bad. So I got around to it the other day and could only get one in, the other has kind of a deformed piercing and is always harder to get in, but it was like it was blocked. I couldn't get it in so gave it a couple more days and tried again.

*wince*

Well it is in but it took about a hour and a half... and IT HURTS LIKE HELL. I even took a shower with the taper half in to relax a little before doing it again. It is bleeding inside the nipple a little so I figure there is one spot inside that likes to close up on me.

BUT its in... *Pant pant*

If "HE" touches my nipple... I think I might smack him... the submissive stuff matters not today I am afraid...

Monday, June 29, 2009

Descriptions

I was thinking today of how I would describe myself to others. I mean seriously looking at me never in a million years would you even think I would be one of those girls with nipples pierced... or submissive for that matter.

I am dominant in my home, mamma lion when I need to be. I run the house... while he is more quiet. The more I run the house, the more I need to be submissive in the bedroom. I hate being in charge and the consistency that is needed to make sure things get done.

If I don't get the dominance in the bedroom then I get cranky and withdraw. I still try to do my best but I feel like I lose myself. I get more depressed and loose interest in sex. Lose interest in taking care of myself... the hair grows and I no longer beg for him to help me take care of it cuz I cease to care. Ok so sex no longer feels as good... and I dont care. I stop taking care of the panty line, its like if he doesn't care why should I?

A few days ago during sex I lay there as he tried to make his way to the promised land to be met by hair resistance, it hurt cuz of hair tugging, and I didn't feel his skin on mine with the hair blocking, and I couldn't understand why he wasn't annoyed with it.

So I fall and get depressed and the want for sex declines.... actually I have trouble getting off, eventually bringing myself out of depression by getting lost in my fantasies, which brings back some of the sex drive.

So...

I need to be dominated on a regular basis to keep myself in check.
I need it more when I am stressed because it makes me forget everything else that is going on and kind of grounds me... grounds me with him.

I can be happy with vanilla... but only if I am taking care of my own needs. Sometimes it scares me cuz I get kinkier and kinkier in order to get off though.

Some day I will get older and wont give a shit right?

He is totally wonderful and amazing in bed when he wants to be... I think he gets to tired for the extra stuff... or something... I dunno.

However we tried to do anal a few days ago and I couldn't do it. I just wasn't there... and felt so unkempt and undesirable... I couldn't relax and do it.

Right now I am in my fantasy stage, and orgasms actually are easier and take my breath away... aka I feel like masturbation again. Today in my head by body was bound with a O ring gag... every hole at his disposal and I got off to the thought of him fucking my ass and chewing on a nipple.

:)

Sunday, June 14, 2009

The punishment that wasn't

He lay the ball gag by my head, and had his way with me.... after I could feel the ball gag rubbing against my arm as he went down on me trying to wake me up... He then grabbed the hitachi and used it until I could feel and finally gave him the O he was waiting for.

I think the punishment was getting those glimpses of the ball gag and realizing what could of been...

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Itty Bitty

Well Sir managed to work out a mini squirt, however...

In the past a couple of times I did it more there was a relief but no real orgasm if you know what I mean... In the mini there was a orgasm and riding the waves :)

Mini because I, of all things... got like a charlie horse in my foot... so it was like oooo orgasm coming... ow ow foot foot... orgasm bye bye... all be damned he is giving me an O with my foot hurting like hell... and then the mini squirting along with foot pain thing happened LOL

It is kinda funny I guess huh? Sir is happy because he got to feel how cold the squirt is, he was actually pretty surprised.

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Loss

I am still mourning the loss of The Seduction of Infidelity

:(

Who is going to make me breathless now?

Keep it Pretty

I walked into the room to find items on the bed.

I put on my ankle cuffs, wrist cuffs, collar, and the ball gag went on last. It hurts my jaw so that is always last…

I get on the bed in sub pose and wait.

He comes in and stares at me, then sighs.

“What is this?” he says accusingly as he pulls my pubic hair.

He made me lay down on my stomach and he nestled a vibrator against my clit. He made me hold open my ass cheeks with my legs spread as he chastised me for letting my hair grow back there as well. He said he wanted my ass pretty and smooth, and I have been neglecting my duties. He poured the hot oil down my ass cheeks so it ran down my cunt to my clit, and he rubbed it in till I was squirming on the bed.

He tied me spread eagle.

He then shoved in the big ass plug, stating that if my ass would have been smooth and pretty he would of put in the jeweled one that I like, but I didn’t deserve the jeweled one. He then started spanking me with something… and every once in awhile he would spank my pussy for good measure making sure it still burned.

He spanked me harder and faster, mumbling that it was too bad it hurt and I was having problems coming because he wasn’t going to stop until I came, as proof that I am his naughty little slut that acts up just so he will prove what a slut I am and that I enjoy the pain. He hit my ass, thighs and pussy until I got lost, coming hard, screaming into my ball gag.

He took out the ass plug and got between my legs, vibrator still humming on my swollen clit, he poured more hot oil to lube me up and spread my ass with his hands… sticking his thumbs in opening me up as he poked away at me with his hard cock.

He shoved his cock inside of me and leaned down to whisper that it was his ass and I had better keep it pretty for him unless he tells me otherwise.

He came hard and fast, but kept going… until I came and my ass squeezed his cock and made him come again.

He is good at that… he comes many times… and won’t stop until he is satisfied.

Sometimes that means his piece of ass is in for a long night…. And I love it.

For the love of my jewelry

I have been wracking my brain trying to figure out what it is about that butt plug jewelry that is so fascinating for me. It is deliciously naughty for me in a few different ways.

1. The smoothness of the metal makes it plop in, making it seem like my ass is kind of... sucking it up. I feel slutty, and keep waiting for some type of comment about being to eager or something.
2. The long neck is so skinny that it makes it more comfortable. Not like any other plug I have ever worn or tried.
3. Because of the slim neck it only slightly holds you open. This is more erotic to me than a larger plug, it is almost a silent statement of... "You are comfortable, but your ass is open slightly for me... as a reminder it is mine."
4. The jeweled area between my ass cheeks is almost more bothersome than the plug inserted. If you tighten to much it feels rigid. However it also is more proof that no matter how you try and clench and keep him out, he wins. Your ass will be kept open, so just give in and let it be.
5. When he taps on it and gives it a rub it makes my heart beat faster :)

My mind wanders to what it would be like to wear it for a day, if I need it taken out having to ask permission to do so... and envision laying over his lap as he strokes my ass and flicks it a bit before taking it out. Doing what I need to do and silently returning and laying over his lap again so he can reinsert the pretty jewel.

He likes to look at it, I cannot tell a lie I have also imagined him making me lean over the side of the bed, legs hanging down and spread wide for his viewing pleasure.... as he whacks off on me and rubs his come on my ass. Not allowing me to touch him or myself, and wear his come and plug for the day until he decides what to do with me.

My imagination runs wild.

I think its because I need to have those after effects... I like to feel used for awhile afterwords. I want the sore muscles, the hot oil making me burn, that vicks making your ass tingle. A reminder I am his, that doesn't disappear just because he is done with me.

Being a sub is easy, being a Dom is hard work. They have to think about how to put their sub in that place and keep her there for awhile to be happy. A happy sub is a horny sub LOL

Take me
Brake me

But it is given freely, and with trust... that no one else ever has had from me.

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Just... Cuz


Bathtime with my purple barbells in :)

I think

Sir needs a zapper so that every time I don't listen he can give it a zap?

In other news things are kind of slow due to just real life events.

To spice things up I am going to do the TMI... late :D

TMI Tuesday #188 - Rambling Edition

1. Before the industrial revolution, most people never traveled more than 30 miles from their home. How far from your birth place do you now live? 100 miles

2. What is the farthest distance from home you have you have ever had sex or an orgasm? What is there farthest distance you have traveled from your home to have a sexual encounter? 100 miles

3. How many states (or Canadian provences or your country's geopolitical division) and counties have you had sex and/or an orgasms in? Orgasm states... 1.. had sex in... I dunno... 4 maybe? For sure 2

4. Have you ever had sex in a vehicle? Yeppers While the vehicle was moving? Kinda... giving blowjobs and getting fingered counts right?

5. Do you have any travel related fantasy? If so, share, please. Doesn't everyone have a strip search fantasy? We can add it maybe some cuffs to make ya stand still too right?

Bonus: On holidays that honor our military do you tend to remember those currently serving or veterans of military service? yes I do :)

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Jewel Butt Plug


"IT" came. Talk about giddy.

I showed him when he got home from work... a couple days later he was giving me a fabulous massage and all of a sudden I felt cold on my butt and I knew what it was...

I tried to shoo his hands away, all he did was meet it with shoving his fingers up my ass and I will be damned if it didn't feel soooo good. The next time I felt the metal it was wonderful because he has some of the heating oil on his fingers and my ass was burning up. I relaxed because I knew there would be no giv he and I didn't want to get hurt. It was like falling into sub mode.

It slipped in with very little effort. We where both surprised. The slim middle is wonderful, it makes the whole plug so comfortable. He fucked me silly.

:)

My head was in sex mode, wild ideas popping through it... hard to NOT want sex after he reaching over and gives the jewel a little tap when it is filling me up.

I am totally amazed at the comfort, and give this five stars! Really I think everyone should try it :) I think pure torture would be wearing it and NOT getting sex. I haven't worn it around the house yet... I will keep you updated ;) He says next time he needs pictures ... I cant wait!

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Frustration O

Frustration taken over from going to long without the big O... she pounces the minute he is out of the house and uses the vibe. Props it up against the bed and pretends she is getting it from the backside and it takes less than a minute for the orgasm to take over.

Yikes... so much for liking the long masturbation's... I reckon when your frustrated you come quicker than other times eh?

Monday, May 11, 2009

Spankings, earned with desire.

I read this story once a long time ago about a woman who worked for a man and she broke some items and was going to receive a spanking. She had to dress for the night in her jammies and panties, and stand before him... then lean over the couch for her spanking. He would feel up her ass and stroke it between hits.

He would then pull it taut and fun his finger between her legs, swirling it around her ass making her pucker up, then going down to her pussy, commenting on how obviously naughty she was for getting wet during her punishment.

He then made her take off her panties for the spanking, having her lean over his lap and making her spread her legs wide, hard smacks followed by him rubbing and feeling her ass cheeks, or how wet she was. She tried to stop him a couple of times but she got more spankings for it. She ended up withering on his lap, him spanking her with one hand while the other would finger her lightly in the pussy and ass. He would rub he clit off and on as well.

When he was done, and she could feel his hard cock under her, he sent her to her room. She was hot, horny and confused. She then started to masturbate.

He was smart, taking control and making her his... and she didn't even know it.

I wished I was the girl. :)

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Morning babe

Having him slip into bed fully clothed and rubbing up and snuggling in, wiggling my bottom in his crotch... does indeed make the man unbutton those pants and decide that going to work smelling like sex is a good thing.

It also makes slipping in the smart balls easier having the "natural" lube. From here on out at least two hours a day trying to keep them up there. I dont understand it. the first time I used them it was cake keeping them up where they where supposed to be, now they slip down on me so I have to tighten those muscles up, for him yes... but more so for me. It is my irritation that made me vow to two hours a day. Either that or I made the vow because of how totally amazing it feels to have on the the little weighted balls shift inside the bigger one and send a tingle up my spine.

We came up with a little new "rule" too, he absolutely hates it when I wear my hair in a certain way, so from here on out when I do I have to wear the smart balls or the baby butt plug when I wear my hair that way. He is also allowed to check and make sure I haven't forgot and respond accordingly.

The problem with this is that at home its easy to reinsert the balls, away from home not so easy. So until I can keep them up where they are supposed to be I reckon the anal plug would have to be worn when I leave the house.

I wonder what I got myself into because to be honest, I really like wearing my hair like that... it keeps it off my neck...

Yesterday was delightful as I got bent over a large pillow and he smacked my ass a bit with his plastic.. things? I dunno what they are but they feel good. They are my favorite and do not really hurt but make the ass welt up and get nice and red for him. He then fucked me silly after putting some clips on my pussy lips. We ended that session with smart ball practice and our new "deal"

O O O

Much to my amusement he tried the dab of vicks on his own ass yesterday. His revalations with it in where priceless. :)

Oh and for the record, that damn ball is big for my mouth! It bothers my jaw. I have a small mouth you see... and we did get the smallest ball. So now I am pondering what to do . It is sexy as hell though ;)

Thursday, May 7, 2009

HNT


Oh... Did I mention the ball gag came?

Go join in the HNT fun:
HNTbutton

And don't forget:
the-otherhnt

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Masterbation... why not?

Why not bind each breast tight, but separate... and watch the blood flow. Then watch in wonderment how the women can have their breasts bound like that and they turn so purple. If you feel it is tight enough but they don't turn purple... then dont you wonder in amazement how tight it has to be to do it and think.. no no no... dont wanna go there.

Why not slick down the anal plug with hot oil and a naughty mind. Slide it in and wiggle mercilessly when it starts to burn. Somewhat feeling like a real cock in there with the burning sensation instead of the little plug. A game with yourself of keeping your ass tight enough to keep it in, but lets spread ludely so that you look like the lil slut you wanna be.

Why not pull out the hitachi and lay on it, low setting while laying on your belly. Laying on the tight round breasts causing more discomfort, as if tightly bound and being forced.

Why not pull up a vid about a girl crying out in pain as her ass gets fucked for the first time and remember past ass fucks and how he pulled your hips back to him when you tried to take control and get away while telling you to "Get your ass back here" while he slid his cock back in your tight ass, making it burn like the lube is doing to your own ass.

Why not feel the orgasm coming and move away... practice control. Good job... go back and watch more as your ass burns, legs spread, breasts throbbing, start thinking about him being here and making your pull apart your ass cheeks so he can get a good look of the scene, snap a few photo's of your anal assult to humiliate you later with... pull back, don't orgasm so soon.... losing battle, hitachi isnt touching you as you start coming all over the place and scream into a pillow when you thrust your hips down onto the hitachi and the orgasm gets bigger and longer.

Why not get up to walk to the bathroom after putting toys away, all but your butt plug and feel it every step you take, wondering what it would be like if you had to wear it out and about the town next time you saw him. Feeling the discomfort... taking it out and washing the plug, and putting it back.

Why not find your smart balls and shove them deep in your drenching pussy, filling your wanten cunt while you get ready for a nap. Yes, lets sleep with a filled pussy, and hope to dream about what could of been real, instead of just toys.

Why not?

Round Two

Round two with the butt plug was pretty much like round one except for he decided to fuck me with the plug really fast in the ass. I didn't much like it... prefer it just left in or slower fucking. But that is kind of the point too, what does he want...

I would think of that and kinda push my butt up and will it open and it would feel good... I then would fall into a kind of, what are you doing, place and it would hurt again. I would go back and forth. Odd strange feeling.

I have been, kinda a ass in real life. Huge amounts of stress for awhile and it isn't that I am taking it out on him, but more like wanting him to take it out more on me. I want to be lost and totally controlled for awhile. I would love one of the Wet Wednesdays where I would have to keep everything lubed up... or a day of having to ask him to take out the butt plug when I go to the bathroom, but wear it all day to remember just who is the boss.

I need a day of extremes every once in awhile, but yet I hear many say the same thing.

OOOooo and I have my favorite toys:
  1. hitachi
  2. we-vibe (yet it scares me too hehe)
  3. butt plug (when it is used the way I want it to be)
  4. my cuffs
  5. the rabbit (though ours is long dead)

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Leather

Red ball gag he says, no other color will do. I have the gag ordered with a chin strap attached.

We scoured over collars trying to find the one he wanted and he finally found one he would accept, I ordered it this morning.

I found a light step upon me today, amazed that a good romp with some added submission can make me feel so peaceful.

He picked up a wooden paddle today in the store and I looked at him in horror. "I dont think my bum wants wood on it." He talked about what he would write across it yet... put the paddle down. Whew... my ass is saved!

saved... for what?

Friday, May 1, 2009

Order order

Order your collar, he says... or rather writes, and describes it in great description... well in his world anyway. It left me going HUH? What does he want? How can I order something I do not comprehend?

He looked over them with me and found one he liked, I will be ordering it tomorrow.

Part two.... order a ball gag. *gulp* with comments about keeping me quiet as to not interrupt household members. Leather and red, well that was more doable but of course I made it hard and still felt the need to get it okayed before I ordered it.

So we get this worked out.

"How much trouble am I in?"

He takes out the egg and it gets put in my pussy and turned on. I reached and grabbed the new toys and his favorite one from my drawer and gave them to him.

In silence, I roll over.

He rubs my back and strokes my butt, long enough to relax me. As much as one can relax with an egg vibrating in your pussy.

He pours lube down my ass cheeks. Parting them expertly and wiggling his finger inside my bum, making sure I was coated. Fingering me for awhile and I felt a blush in my cheeks remembering how he finger fucks my ass in my sleep sometimes and I make no move to stop him.

He then slides in the anal plug, deep within.

He then took out the egg and I believe fucked me senseless with a dildo. I was dying and miserable. He wouldn't touch my clit. Propped my ass further in the air so he could get to it but it was a no go. All he did was fuck me with that "thing" over and over, while keeping the ass plug shoved deep inside me.

Miserable I say.

I knew that part of what was happening was for a problem of yesterday. My head started repeating over and over the thought of the silentwords.... That ass is mine, and I will do what I want to it.

Then it happened. Can it be? I felt my clit growing out trying to touch him in some way, not finding him and still throbbing. That flash of ... OMG I am going to come anyway was hardly finished before I was coming all over the place and gasping for air. He didn't quit, I was starting to come down, pussy starting to behave and I came all over him again.

He threw the dildo? At least I am still thinking that is what it is. He shoved his hard cock in me and fucked me silly, each thrust pushing the anal plug deeper inside me until I was shoving my face into the sheets and pillow trying to muffle another orgasm as he continued to pound me until he was done with me.

Whispered comment before he drifts off to sleep, "I am kinda a anal slut aren't I?"

The reply simple... "Yes you are."

So I jot down my thoughts, before I drift off to sleep..... pussy filled with his hot wet come mixed with mine, and sloppy lubed up ass.

This is bliss

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Why and TMI please

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Friday, April 24, 2009

Rewinding time

"I don't think I want to tie you up" was his comment. He didn't understand at all. It took me showing him what the bonds meant for him to understand. He liked it, but didn't quite understand why.

I tied him up, blindfolded him, and then played with his body for awhile... if there is one thing he likes it is blow jobs.... but I didn't complete it. Instead I brought out the trusted vibrator and pleasured myself, making sure my thigh brushed up against him so he could feel my leg... feel the muscles tense, my thigh shake against his... until my moans deep in orgasm take over, and he is muttering words of tremendous want... as I reach over and untie his bonds, and he climbs on me and shows me what he has stored up for me.

That was getting the feet wet, not in bondage really but in teasing someone while bound. It took awhile to get more brave and tell him how I wanted more, some of it brought on by his own ties and love for patterns of rope on my body.

Until him I was slightly submissive and my more kinkier fantasies revolved around women to be honest. He changed me a lot... I became more submissive and more wanting of tastes of deeper things. Perhaps not all the time but it was kind of needed. Because if he doesn't give it to me my own head will... to fill a void. In having to fill the void myself I pull away from him some, because I feel unwanted.

masturbation can be a great friend

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Gimme more

The world needs better porn, or I need a less active imagination.

I find bits and pieces of what I like but not the full meal deal it seems.

I confess I like to watch clips of ultimate surrender and my head works in overdrive, however a lot of it I think is the domination of it all. I like to be dominated, crave it... however I find it somewhat on my terms, and kinda want that person to say... fuck you, you do it on my terms. Funny thing is the more I get it rough, the more I enjoy the softer sex, it makes you crave the opposite perhaps?

Seriously, how many women crave to be fucked for an hour straight? How many have their orgasm and even though they say... I am done... the other person says, I am not done so deal with it.

Domination to me isn't really about him getting off, more about how they control my body. The more its controlled the hotter I get.

  • Oh your nipples hurt? Too bad, they aren't black and blue so you get the clamps.
  • Get your ass ready cuz in a half hour it is going to be up in the air waiting for me to fuck it.
  • Tied up with clothes on as the hand slips up my shirt and grabs my breast.
The men would be in shock if they really realized what our fantasies are and what we masturbate too.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

TMI Tuesday



1. Marriage and children aside, what has been your greatest accomplishment in life? A few of the photo shoots I have done and gotten paid for on the side.

2. Aside from healthy and happy children, what is your greatest ambition for the future? Would love to do something more with my photography. It would be awesome to have my own shop and have thought about ways to promote it for years.

3. If we were to enter your real name in a search engine, what would we find? A lotta people that are not me.

4. Who is the most famous person you ever met (not just in the same room as, but actually spoke with)? Yeoman Rand

5. Parents aside, who is your biggest hero? Every day people that overcome some really massive shit and survive, I often think that there is no way I could of gone through what they did.

6. Someone once worked out the sexual version of Six Degrees of Separation - Celebrity A slept with B, who slept with C, who slept with D, making as sort of connection between A and D. Are you connected to anyone famous through six or fewer bonks? I think I would have to bonk more poeple for that LOL

Thursday, April 16, 2009

HNT

So tell me... what is it about a shelf bra that makes wearing it so yummie?

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

TMI Tuesday





1. If you could describe your personality through a dance what would it be? haha a cell phone dance cuz it is always getting in the way, and I am trying to dodge it.
2. What about describing your sex life through a type of dance? mmm sporadic?
3. What's one move on the dance floor sure to turn you on? Tango, I think it is erotic and smexy!
4. Is there a dancer you would love to be with? (Dancer can be used as loosely as you want!) This would imply I knew dancers... and I do not, but how about someone who is slow with lotsa sexy touches that are done with a strong hand, demanding my body to follow his lead *purrs*
5. What moves do you pull out to impress someone new? Respecting them for some reason, be it a big or small thing... otherwise, I am me so deal with it

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Holding back

If there is one thing that I have learned since the hitachi has entered the picture is that I hold back.

I think this actually happens more than I totally realize. Probably with Sir too... Its like I fight to control the orgam, like it has to be on my terms. In reality I think this not only robs me of some it also takes some and makes them smaller than they actually could be.

How does one fix this?

How do I know that I am doing this? I feel it.

I reign in my voice, more often than not trying to be mute.
I take some of the vibration away so it will not be as intense.
I will clamp down myself instead of being loose and relaxed and letting it take over me.

In reading more about wet orgasms I believe I have learned that I have stopped them from happening.

However, I have achieved them in the past and not really realized what they where... in my young stupidity I thought I was wetting the bed. I now realize, through lack of smell it was actually a squirting orgasm. My head has now taken those away from me, and I would like to get it back on occasion :)

So something to work on.... who knew sex is so much work?!

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

TMI Tuesday



1. Have you ever had a sexual experience with the opposite sex?
Not really, though not because I didn't want to, I had the opportunity when I was young and chickened out. However, now if the opportunity presented itself I would want to but wouldn't do anything to harm our marriage.

2. When you see someone you like, how do you act, how do you get their attention? I do not really do that anymore. haha... unless your asking how I get my mans attention, and then nibbling in his ear or blowing my hot breathe on his neck seems to get his attention when he doesn't realize what I am doing before that ;)

3. Dominate or dominated, which do you prefer?
Dominate me all the way baby, I hate to be the dominate one. Real life is full of giving out orders, my bedroom I really do not want that. Take me, swat that ass and tell me its yours :)

4. Would you/ Have you ever had a threesome?
I never have had one, I would but could never do it with someone I love, I just do not share well :( But I am with my man so this is a mute possibility at the moment... which is ok because I love the areas we are exploring.

5. When was the last time you had sex?
Last night I had a nice ride :)

6. Sex on the first date...good or bad?
I guess it depends on the people and how they do things... yea I have done it and no... it led no where... and he wasn't that good :P

7. Do you have any random or out of the ordinary turn ons?
Oh hell yea, I will be in a crowded room and see his hands doing something and blush cuz I start thinking of them on me and doing what they do so well. Don't even get me going on those fingers of his....

8. What attributes attract you to a potential partner.
I would say grooming is a big one, and confidence.... I am a hand watcher too and I love a nice butt.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Inside the girl

I have gotten some compliments and simple comments from Sir about various things that I have written about past encounters here and I realized, wow what a thought! To be able to get inside someones head and realize what they where feeling as you where doing something from the others point of view. What it meant... to me.

I find myself wondering what it is like from his point of view.

Like... what was he thinking as he took the vibrator away yet my body was still withering below him in a long ... seemingly never ending orgasm?

What was he thinking when he held the back of my head, grasping my hair and fucking my mouth with his cock repeatedly?

I wonder if he feels like reading items here are more of a "gift" per say... a gift of looking inside my mind where I am most vulnerable.

HNT


HNT_1

See, I'm still here....

:)

Friday, March 27, 2009

*waves*

If I wasn't sick as a dog with my monthly friend I might actually be horny. My nipples seem to have woken up and just laying on my stomach makes them tender... my mind wanders for a few fleeting seconds and then I am back into feeling like crap.

Real life, along with being sick has taken a big chunk out of my writing time. However I did take some time out to work on some writings for Sir, which is a good and bad thing... I haven't finished it and he wants me to... but I haven't really been in the mood while feeling like I do.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Hearing the music in words

Words get me going big time. The more vocal he is the hotter I get.

Why is a mystery, but even when he is quiet my mind is filling in the blanks with pure smut... but like I said, if he actually says it I go crazy. In essence I could also so the lack of the vocal whispers would be a punishment *smiles*

It can be simple things like just the orders to follow, how to undress... what to take off, when to spread my legs.. NO WIDER :)

Now, soft gruff whispers during the day really get my mind going and make for an interesting night. Its my foreplay.

My favorite time though is when the words in my head stop, my body needs nothing but release and its torture not to give in to the orgasm. Because then he has me, nothing in my head holding back. I tend to hold back a lot... but when he gains that power over me it is out of this world, with an out of this world orgasm to match it.

The nice lovey dovey stuff has its place as well, and I guess it is just nice to take a trip down both paths.

Friday, March 6, 2009

Smoothness at its max

Is there truly anything sweeter to the touch than a freshly taken care of pussy... smooth as a baby's butt lips... or feeling his hand lightly stroke the the skin that feels more than usual due to the hair being taken out of the picture. So much more feeling.

I wonder how it is for him when he first sucks the lips into his mouth... or runs his tongue up my slit till he attacks my waiting clit with his tongue and mouth.

There is nothing I love more!

I like the lips bare... he likes everything bare.

I personally think his hands travel much more when everything is so amazingly smooth and soft. I wonder if some of the same thoughts where going through his mind yesterday as he started his anal assault as I lay sleeping?

What is it about Anal? The next day when you can still feel it? Feeling used? Dirty and naughty facing the tasks of the day? Shouting out orders to your crew as you remember moaning and grabbing the covers as your being pounded and used, longing to feel him deeper into my ass and exploding in orgasm?

Thank you Sir can I have another?

Thursday, March 5, 2009

HNT

People are strange creatures

Come here and see me... oops forget it

The past few days have been a roller coaster of working things out, and the realization that it takes longer than a few hours to work things out. Plus ya know...

We are working out and defining things? I get scared, run... hide... protect myself, and sometimes when tired my mind works overtime. In any case... we move forward.

What am I saying... If I feel unbalanced my world is shaken and I sometimes do things that I regret later... but yet I do not freak over the smallest of things either. Unfortunately the love of my life also has a little problem in the communication department so sometimes things get worse than they need to be. It has been a long long time since things where this out of whack between us.

However, my dear man decided to reclaim his ass this morning... literally. Though not with spankings, I think the only thing missing where the chants of "Remember, this ass is mine" because seriously... I need to hear it.

Woman in need of claiming :)

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Contemplations

Taking a step back to assess the situation leads me to believe that I feel more naked being clothed which of course leads me to feel way to uncomfortable being naked.

Perhaps I am talking in to many riddles, or perhaps I am just trying to figure out who we are because things I knew to be true, are not quite as true as I thought.

I am this person who needs to feel secure, when I don't I run rampant, causing turmoil at every turn and acting out to hurt, to inflict feelings that have turned to stone. Test to see what is really there because I no longer trust certain truths I felt 100% sure of.

Its like coming out of hiding and then being sick to your stomach that you did, because now there is too much exposed to be used against you. It was so much easier pretending that you where someone else... safer.

I am confused

Friday, February 27, 2009

Lets hear it for the toys

Hitachi... you are loud!

So we used it a few days ago and I kept thinking DAMN your LOUD. Takes awhile getting used to, Sir used the straight attachment and it was all ok but... I dunno, different and LOUD.

However the next time he used it I came in no time flat the minute he spread my lips apart and placed it on my clit. His fingers doing the spreading was my actual trigger. I was quite loud and he was quite amused afterwards *blush*

We haven't played with the g-spot attachment yet, so we still have something to look forward to.

We had a long rule discussion last night.

As much as I would like to type more, I think it is time to curl up with Sir and visit the sandman.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Weeeeeeeeee amazing fun!

Our we-vibe came and we had to wait 24 hours and keep it plugged in, that... sucked.

The next night Sir decided to try it out even though due to various reasons there had to be very little noise coming from our room.

He rigged up some chains to the bed and cuffed my wrists and ankles... played for a bit and inserted the we-vibe after using some lubricant. It was nice and pleasant but even better when he would place his hand on my mound kind of pressing it in, then it was ever so yummie.

Sir decided it was time to test out his new toy and pushed his way in, it was so nice but I was squirming so bad and I wanted to be fucked and fucked then and there... so much so I begged to be on top and told him that I wanted to fuck him. He gave me a few more fast strokes and I was so near coming when he pulled out I groaned. He unchained me and I climbed on top of him.

I should of re lubed him at this point but I forgot *blush*

I started riding him like no tomorrow, I know he came a couple of times... I tried to sit on top of him like I usually do but he was too large. He was super horny and he does get bigger at certain times... sounds weird but it is true. It was uncomfortable to sit straight up, so I leaned forward and started grinding on his hips until I started feeling that wonderful wave washing over me and I gave into it making little squeaking noises... at least in my head they where.

All I know is I was in heaven with a big orgasm and just when I thought it was done another kind of grasped my whole body and all my muscles tightened and it almost felt like I was sucker punched in the tummy the way I gasped in for it.. totally amazing and so strong like I have never had before in my life.

I jumped off and tore out the we-vibe not wanting anymore stimulation cuz I couldn't handle it. I found that spot where I realized that I had no control at all over my body and its orgasms and it was so totally new for me, deeper into subspace and I know Sir was close to another orgasm but he was enjoying my reactions... I think.. I dunno my head gets jumbled.

I just know at that moment I almost feared it... not being in control over it and what it would of been like if it had not come out at that moment.

I was riding a high that night and the next day and Sir was surprised when I didn't want to use it again. I said I was more than content... we ended up having sex anyway though... sans toys :)

The night after I used the we-vibe around his balls and gave him a blow job and he seemed to like it muchly. I have to be careful though because I have TMJ and it can really start hurting sometimes.

I think what blows my mind the most is... we only used the we-vibe on the low setting. It boggles thinking of the high setting.

So is it possible to love it and fear it at the same time? Cuz I do....

Monday, February 23, 2009

What there should be...

What there should be is a long post about our first session with our new toy but I think I am still processing everything in my head. It was quite an amazing night to be certain. More toys arrived today... which have gone unused just due to being contentedly happy already and.... well he has found this evil little look now that pops out quite often that I have never seen before. It is nice to have spent so many years with him and still find new things, wonder if he feels that way too?

So lets leave it as a post to say, the we-vibe is worth the money... and I really do need to post about it.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Who has the upper hand now?

Evil wicked thoughts ran through my mind as I rolled him over to lay on his back and grabbed the heated massaging oil. Naughty nymph.

I poured it over him and the result of my efforts was met with more amusement than anything else. I figured why not share that hot stuff so he could see what it was like?! Wasn't quite working like I had anticipated so I worked it onto his balls as well making sure to get plenty there. "It isn't so bad," he says, "just a little warm here and the balls are kind of warm."

Thats it? I mean HELLO... he is supposed to be sensitive right?

I roll over and have my little hissy fit, no more hand job if that was the case.

Obviously I didn't quite think it through.... he pinned me down and fucked me hard and fast, and let me tell you I had used a lot of the oil on him so I was coated quite well. My clit was on fire along with other things, now when he was pumping it was ... well at least the air made it more livable... but after he came and started his long ever so slow thrust with lets see how far it can be burried I squealed like a lil piggy. Then it burned like crazy. He got off quite amused...

So yes, and hour later while he was snoring like a baby... my clit slowly returned to normal yet I was still awake because it hit one point where... well just moving made me so aware of my clit and pussy, swollen and freshly fucked... and now horny...

I try to sleep.... yet think of him taking me repeadely. *sigh*

I guess I learned not to do that, thinking about it now I realize it was a stupid idea...

HNT


HNT_1


Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Hot manipulations

"You are evil you know."

I get a cocky, "Why is that?"

"You spread the hot oil all over my clit and made me come, even when I didn't want to... "

He states, "Yea well, I wanted you to have a big one."

He did his job well, but in afterthought it wasn't not wanting to have an orgasm it is not understanding it... how he can take the burning and make it feel so good that I come so hard when I really don't think I can.

It felt like he was switching back and forth between the hot oil on his fingers reapplying the heat and something cooler that would help cool me down. Orgasm getting ready to come then ducking away trying to protect my clit from the heat. Only he would have none of that and coax that orgasm further along until I had no choice but to give it to him. I have no complaints over how hard the orgasm is that is for sure.

We looked at decorative steel anal plugs the other day, he fancies the ones that have little chains attached to them so they can stick out of the top of the pants so that he could give it little tugs when we are out and about in public... as a little reminder... this ass is his.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Happy Valentines Day

What a lovely day to order lovely toys via the wonderful internet shopping place.

I need to clean my bedroom, but I need incentive....

*looks all whimsical*

I need many things.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Monday, February 9, 2009

Tie me, spread me, fuck me Sir

After the first rope scene my little head went wild, I looked up some things on the net and showed it to Sir and he was very interested. I found the Karada, and a mini how to movie to watch to do it ourselves.

Feeling the rope go on is amazing, its like the more rope on you the deeper your head goes. Placing the knots where you want them is so erotic.

I cannot even begin to describe what it is like feeling the rope slip through my pussy lips opening them, holding them open then reaching around the back spreading my ass cheeks open. If there is one main thing that gets me going its being held open like that. Its like a non verbal head game to me. Nothing is hidden, it is right out there, clit standing loud and proud... juices leaking out of me, ass puckering at the slightest touch of his finger... He knows how horny I am, there is no denying it.

He tied me and I was kind of sitting on my heels as he also tied my arms behind my back. So there I am tied, feeling the rope around my breasts, feeling my ass being spread open as well as my pussy by the ropes... he pushed me down on the bed.

I was uncomfortable, my legs where bent at the knee and my feet by my ass, I was also laying on my tied arms...

"Lets see what we have here" and he grabbed the vibrating egg and shoved it inside my pussy and turned it on.

That was it, he wanted release, he climbed on my body and started pounding me relentlessly. Much to my dismay I found myself becoming so aroused I couldn't help but come all over his hard pounding cock. It was an amazing orgasm, and also amazing how my discomfort was totally gone, lost in the act itself.

So yea... after that my head constantly went to being tied up in some way, becoming a rope... orgasm addict. For awhile after that I would use the rope on my own breasts when I would masturbate.... and it is still one of my favorite memories to masturbate too... to this very day.

So what does this make me? I dont really care... I just like to feel good, and trust me, it feels oh so good.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

HNT

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Sir has some requirements....

Through the looking glass

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

I wanna drive you crazy baby

I have plans to go to Sir's work and whisper in his ear, that I am still wearing the smart balls.

The "Smart" Choice

Slipping in smart balls for the 3rd time is easier as I know "where" they should be. I also know that it is much easier to lay on the bed and put them in vs standing up somewhere and not getting them in right. I also adored the feeling of tightening my muscles and sucking them up into my cunt. It really didn't take long to get squirmy.

Luckily Sir was available by phone to text and ask permission to come, he said yes but I have to be in slave position when he arrives home after work, incoming pounding is expected in the near future.

But at the moment I have a semi-satisfied, just got off, puss.

Monday, February 2, 2009

Pretty Patterns

I laid there as he took my hands and put them behind my back and cuffed them together. I quieted down and watched as he picked up the ropes and went to his work. He quietly worked and started making a pattern out of the rope on my arms, linking them closer together and in doing so I dipped into my first major sub space. Funny how you stay kind of quiet, not wanting to destroy what is happening.

When the rope was gone he ended up slipping a vibrator up my slit and nestled it against my clit, and left the room.

Or did he? I wasn't sure, I lay there trying to listen as the vibrations did their magic. There was no ignoring it, I was worried he was still there watching and tried to stay still as long as possible.

It didn't work.

I starting moaning and trying to thrust my hips deeper into the bed, wanting more. I came hard moaning in the empty room quite loudly. He came in shortly after to continue playing and snapping pictures.

It leaves one longing for pretty patterns, and searching for new rope ideas.

Bringing Out the Leather

I walked in and found him with my collar, I tilted my head down and to the side so he could put it around my neck and fasten it. The leather felt good. I found myself straddling a big body pillow with the cuffs sticking out attached to chain. I was attached to the top of the chain by my neck and wrists, very close together under my throat, he pulled up my legs one by one to be fastened into the ankle cuffs afterward. The length was short so that my hips where raised up in the air, stuck in a kneeling position with my ass up, legs spread around the pillow. With the chain connecting everything there was not much room for movement.

There was much spanking to follow by various items unknown... I am not sure what everything was but he seemed to be experimenting with different things. His favorite are these things about 12 inches long, plastic and they each curve. He puts them together so they curve away from each other and spanks. It had been quite awhile, and felt very good... except for the few that hit too close to where the last one hit and it started to smart a bit, but he soon went to the other side.

It was followed by a vibrator inserted and him playing with my clit, he would stop and hit some more, then go back to his playing. Back and forth.. back and forth. I ended up coming with a vengeance.

Honestly I cannot remember much from then on out, I know I sucked his cock for a bit and after that it is kind of a blur.

The night didn't end there, and honestly it is hard to determine where one session ended and other began.

The next morning, a woman awoke quite content, happy and a wee bit sore in the muscles. Sore muscles... how I have missed thee.

Saturday, January 31, 2009

What are you going to do?

Guilt snuck in followed by confession. Blaming him for something that I was part of too but I didn't admit my part at first.

He whispers in my ear, "What are you going to do about that, to make up for it?"

Tingling feelings rushing through my cunt wondering how a sentence can do that. "Finish the wrist cuffs that you where nice enough to say I could make to sleep in every night instead of the leather ones..."

"What else," he replies.

More tingles.... "Finish the contract and make it a longer length of time like you asked?"

"What else," he replies.

"Make sure the positions are practiced before we go to bed?"

"What else," he replies.

I am quiet, searching for the magic sentence he wants.

"What is a good pet going to do NOW to make up for it?"

It ends riding on top of Sir rocking back and forth, trying to slam onto his hips with the same force he is rising up and thrusting himself into me. Feeling him pinch my nipples harder and harder the closer he gets... my head imagining that this nipple pain wasn't for me but for him, because he wanted my nipples to hurt and throb when he filled up my pussy with this hot load of come.

I knew better than to ask to come myself.

I broke a rule.
I hid a rule.

I broke a rule.
I tried to hide it.
In hiding it, I made Sir feel bad.

I was wrong, very wrong, and more honest with him last night than I feel I have been in a very long time.

I am deeply sorry for what happened last night Sir.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Who says bald isn't beautiful?

After I took a hot steamy bath I retired to our bedroom where Sir used some nair on my pubic area as the hair was growing back already. Afterwards it was followed by a shave to get missed hairs... it was deliciously naughty. He would spread me open and look for awhile and I wouldn't know exactly what he was doing or looking at. He did manage to do a little clit stroking though. He then rolled me over and worked on my back side... but only after he inserted a vibrating egg in my pussy.

After he was done with the shaving he fucked me silly with the egg still inside of me... he then grabbed another vibrator and used that on me until I was begging to come.

We ended with a long hot shower together.

We went shopping and picked up some more lubes to play with. We got some KY, Wet original and wet flavored too! Oh oh oh, we picked up some containers to sort some of the toys a little better too.

So I have a nice hairless puss again and I love it, and really love it when he shaves me like that. It so arousing, and kind of taboo...

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Whatcha thinking about?

He asked me that... and I gotta say my answer was nothing compared to what he was thinking about.

Sir, "I was thinking about sticking a finger up your ass and whipping your butt, and how tight your ass would squeeze my finger"


ummmmmm ok

now I am thinking of that too

*squirms*

Friday, January 23, 2009

Yes... use me more Sir!

I fulfilled my morning duties and went back to bed this morning, Sir was going to stay up despite the fact that he didn't get much sleep either.

Later I was woken to hard breaths in my ear and my ass and pussy being stroked. He had a lust air about him as he basically took what he needed for the day... I whispered the porn must have been good... he said it was and took off for the shower to start his day and leave for work.

I snuggled into the warm bed with a freshly fucked pussy, happy and content.

This evening ended with me on top of him as he decided to once again indulged in that which is his, which is great but... ahem... my pussy is getting sore :(

I used the smart balls for about an hour today. Time to tighten some muscles... rawr

Reflections

Sir has been putting the freshly shaved pussy to work, and pampering it as well with nice oil rub downs. He likes no hair in the way and how his cock feels rubbing between my lips. He the is saying it is time to get another waxing machine to take care of hair in a little more fun way. Nothing like sex after a fresh wax when the whole area feels so alive. Just the thought of it makes me squirm a bit.

We have started a meditation before bed ritual that seems to be working nicely for us. We are working on keeping it going for a couple of weeks and will see where it will go from there.

Together we are also finding that my orgasms are getting bigger/stronger. Its hard to tell if they are one big long one or more than one... just when I think I am coming down it kind of starts up again.

Sir, I am sorry to report that my thighs are not hurting as bad as they where last night *wicked grin* perhaps I need a do over?

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Making amends

Fucking ourselves silly for an hour and half is a good way to put me in check.

Thank you Sir, for getting me even when I do not get myself.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Real life can KMA... when is it going to be my turn?

What do you do when the best of plans and intentions always seem to fall through?

Real life... happens.

Life would be easier if I just wanted to simply get off... instead of wanting so much more.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Big nipples turn me on... more please Sir?

I spent the afternoon bending in a ton of odd ways that my body isn't used to and shaved my pussy for Sir to come home too, I tried to get it all as well as shave around the ass... talk about feeling super sexy. I love to be smooth. (Sir is going to check me over more tomorrow and make sure all the hair is missing)

I then grabbed my crotchless panties and threw on my lycra pants. Topped it with a bra that likes to have my breasts tumble out of it and a sweater cut so low that half the time there is a breast falling out of it.

I met him in the bedroom, he read what I had written and was quite surprised. He was happy with what I had come up with. He then changed for work and I knelt before him and sucked on his cock for awhile. He pushed me on the bed and took off my pants, quite pleased with the bare pussy before him... he dove in with a very powerful suck on my clit as his hand reached up and was squeezing my nipple between his fingers. Looking down and seeing the top of his head and then seeing how huge my nipple was between his fingers drove me out of my mind.

Orgasms will wait until I have entirely made up for my transgressions.

He slipped inside me and filled me with come, I didn't want him to leave and I think he was quite amused as he walked out of the bedroom door.

This evening he oiled up my shaven areas and ended by fucking me silly until he filled my pussy with another load... and he drifted of to sleep.

My pussy is wanting...

I am hoping for a trip tomorrow deep into subspace. My thoughts getting lost in him spanking me and hitting me all over my body, with reminders I am his. Smacking a clit with his hands as he reminds me it is his, then my pussy, my ass, my breasts.. my nipples... I feel the need to be used and "marked"

Sir liked the clover clamp pictures. I forgot to ask him if I could post them though... tomorrow is another day...

Monday, January 19, 2009

A Vow to Make Things Right


Making things right.

I made a vow last night to make things right. Sir was wonderful in his plannings and I totally dissed him. I was hurting some, I denied some... yet even when I wasn't hurting earlier in the day I ignored. Once more he knew I hurt and massaged me and I still denied. If I where to go back further I masturbated twice without him home ... without permission, and with the new clover clamps. I could get into the "why" of it all but in the end it doesn't matter.

In reading I realized that it wouldn't even be any fun to "punish" if there was no trying to please in the first place. I am pushing, and honestly in the forums I have been reading they do say ignore them if they push, they are supposed to remember and try to please.

I vowed to make things right.

This morning I took the pictures he has been demanding I take off and on for weeks. This morning I poured the hot oil on my fingertips and worked it into my clit. This morning I took the butt plug and poured the hot oil over it to coat it as I inserted it into my ass. I then sat on the bed with my legs crossed forcing it in further as I applied the clover clamps to my nipples and meditated.

I reminded myself that my clit is his and I used it without permission for my gratification, I reminded myself that I used the clamps even though we decided to use them for the first time on a alone day, and I used them to get off. I then reminded myself that the burning taking place in my ass was for refusing him to touch it last night... and I reminded myself of the look of disappointment on his face last night before we slept.

I will not shower and get ready for him to come home until after the burning has subsided.

Today is preparation... of my making things up to him.

I will make up a schedule of tackling RL events and he will come home to it waiting for him. In this document I will add various things of which he can choose for me to do or make his own demand.

I will put a smile on his face so he is pleased with me again. The next 24 plus hours will be his and I will go to the extreme to make up for my actions.

I am sorry Sir.

After Sir see's the new picture I took today I will share that if he so wishes as well. Or perhaps he will... we will see what happens

Saturday, January 17, 2009

In the minds eye

Hands spreading the oil up and down my body as I lay on my stomach, fingers sliding over my back, my wrists crossed over my head, yearning for those hands to lose their way and kneed my breasts with those long strokes. He doesn't though... he leaves me wanting. Feeling him work the oil into my ass cheeks, wondering if this will be the day...

His hands propping up my hips as his knee works its way in spreading my legs, he moves his body between my legs and pulls me towards him, opening me with his hard cock and pushing his way in. Doesn't matter if I am ready or not, he opens me and pounds me until he is ready to explode inside of me, knowing my moans are a sure sign that the invasion was a wanted invasion.

Curled up spooning, feeling his wet cock behind me, my legs up as my thoughts go to my still tingling pussy lips. He runs his hands up and down my hips until he reaches down to my pussy, my legs, my body... betraying my wants as I position myself so he has easier access. He laughs at me and gives me 3 hard swats on the pussy and says in an amused voice, "Whats this!?, you think you get to come?"

"Shame on you naughty girl," He states as he grabs the hot oil from the nightstand and pours it into his hand, and he rubs it all over my pussy making sure my clit is doused with the heated oil and burning more with the friction of his fingers expertly handling my clit between them. "You do not seriously think you always get what you want do you? You will not come tonight, and if I hear any complaining out of you... you will not come tomorrow either." He forces my legs back shut and rolls me on my side again as we go back to spooning, knowingly trapping the heat between my legs to last longer.

My pussy on fire, nipples like little rocks proudly adorned with their new black rings, I moan softly trying not to make to much of a fuss and wiggle too much, not wanting to risk loosing tomorrows orgasm.

His hand reaches around holding my breast, I know how he must be feeling my rock hard nipple in the palm of his hand, he knows how horny I am.

"Time to simmer down and go to sleep pet," he states and he snuggles in for the night knowing that as he sleeps... I will be burning with desire for him.

In the minds eye...

Monday, January 12, 2009

Feelng Lucky

Clover clamps where bought and paid for and are now on their way to our home. They where shipped today. :)

I am still looking at a couple of other things to order/replace. We went through things and got rid of some old things... time for some new!

Dear Sir, the Bunny hopped away to see the garbage man so we need another.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Come to Mamma lil bunny

"Take off your pants and spread your legs" he commanded. I did as I was told and lay on the bed, he grabbed the rabbit and worked it into me, little ears buzzing and humming on my clit.

Then we got to finish our "talk" and I got to pretend he wasn't getting to me when he was. Even though this happened today my thoughts are jumbled and I cannot really remember anything in terms of order... I just remember him draping and clipping cold chain over my body and feeling the coolness against my skin. I remember him staring at me as he held the rabbit inside me with one hand... while the other started playing with my nipples. Some time during all this he also put me in handcuffs.

It drove me crazy... I wanted him to grab the whole breast but he just toyed with nipples for awhile and when he did slip his hand under my bra and squeeze my breast I was in heaven.

He later pushed up my shirt and bra and put clothes pins on my nipples, and sucked on them for a bit.

All the sensations where amazing, until I was asking to come but he said no, I worked really hard at listening this time and holding off... and he helped by easing up for a bit but I was soon asking again. I cannot remember how many times I asked him, all I know is that when he said I finally could I was so happy to finally let my guard down and my orgasm started slow and got stronger and stronger. Honestly I don't know if it was one huge long one or a few stuck together because just when I thought it was going to be over I would spasm again and orgasm harder like a bunch of waves of this happening... it was very long... and honestly I was still having an orgasm when he stopped the rabbit. It was amazing.

Come to think of it he allowed me to come after I started sucking on his cock, that was the trigger that really got to me.

Me.. sucking a cock has been a trigger more than once now that makes me want to come more than anything. I am finding this hard to believe. Today the minute he stuck it in my mouth I thought back to me sucking on his dick to make him come then when he was working on me coming I was licking my face tasting him on me, feeling my face get dried come on it as the air hit.

This afternoons events ended with him pounding my pussy as he watched my breasts bounce back and forth proudly displaying clothes pins flopping back and forth with his trusts.

This evening for round two I straddled his thighs and road him until I felt him explode in my pussy.

Life is good.

Well, its good except for the part where the bunny cord is broken :(

I am supposed to find 3 new possible replacement toys.