Loving the belt

Hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving. Mine started out with very nice.

We worked more on our contract, updated, and changed. More livable and more unlivable in some ways, but nummy ways!

I am not even quite sure how last night started. I do know I wasn't in the mood and the next thing I knew I was so close to coming I had a hard time believing it. I am used to being that "hard" come girl... I dunno.

I got my ass spanked for a bit with his belt and a brush. I leaned over on a pillow and learned one thing, it is a lot easier on me that way. I don't feel it in my thighs so much. *frowns* Who wants easy?!

I was forbidden to come. The more I am forbidden the more I want to.

I don't know what happened but the me I used to know isn't the same as she used to be. It is has been harder to masturbate to orgasm for me alone now. With him now that permission is needed it takes some stress off or something and I seem to feel more or something. So in reality, taking orgasms away from me has made me had more orgasms? I have to process this more first before I can make much sense here. I just know I adore the ride.

I wonder silently to myself if he is getting off on how wet I become when he spanks me. I do remember over half way through him running his finger down my slit and dipping it in a bit and then commenting on how wet I was. It gives me shivers, something so delightfully naughty for him to call attention to how wet I get when he spanks me. Being vocal with me the wetter I get gets me even more wet... calling me on my horniness makes me more horny.

I cannot "feel" the spankin today though *frowns*

Thank you Sir but may I have another?

Smartballs

Happiness is getting the email that the smartballs have been shipped.

Of course I wasn't real happy when I realized I had a ebay coupon I could of used on them. >.<

Happiness is also getting the new contract more up to speed, work on approval and then we will implement.

Yum

I am.. however... wondering just how naughty of a picture is "allowable" by the powers that be to post here?

Like the picture I have of my pussy shaved bald as can be with a chain snug tight between my pussy lips and... oh my I can still feel the coldness of the metal on my clit from that night... I love being "chain" bound.

Busted contract, lets heat things up a bit

The contract didn't succeed as hoped by either of us. I could list all of the reasons but essentially, non-normalcy ruled. Now I realize through life there is never the "right" time, but I am saying we dealt with some unusual even for us type of things.

I get sick, and it is hard to walk from one room the the other without wheezing, funeral, I get the flu, he gets the flu.

Yea kinda hard to wanna be intimate when you really feel like visiting the toilet to throw up.

We did have our moments tho :)

We talked a bit last night and plan to revise the contract more to suit "us" because we saw some problematic spots, we ordered some smart balls, and we ordered replacement nipple rings because Sir HATES the bars. We actually odered 3 sets :)

Last night started with a neck rub to get rid of my "kink", which led to showing him a couple of updated idea's and documents.... which led to showing him my love for Bang Bull Well of course this led to him getting even hornier than anticipated. I had showed him a tie her up scene that used spreader bars as well, nice spankings and floggings too!

This turned into him deciding that it was spread your legs time so he could play while he watched the movie. His fingers where still full of the massing heat oil, and started burning my clit in no time at all. It burns, it hurts... I hate heating stuff on my clit.. give me ice! anything... beat my ass, clamp my nips, just ... I really hate heat stuff :(

He didn't care. He kept playing.

I moved to straddling him with my ass towards him. I was more spread open, and he could watch the movie or watch me. He grabbed the finger tip massager and started on my clit. Honestly I dont even know everything he was doing down there it just started to feel good, real good... and feeling his hard cock on my pussy mound had me begging for orgasm in no time at all. It actually surprised me because he did have his fingers in my ass with the heated stuff on them but I think I had watered down that burning sensation from my pussy. He had me begging for quite awhile, at least in my world he did. When he finally gave permission it was a relief, and this mini pulses went through my body but they kept getting stronger and stronger. It felt so good!

I then sat up and slid him inside me and started to ride him with with my back still to him. He was able to grab my hips and force himself harder and further into me, and reach around and man handle my tits until he filled up my pussy with his load.

That was round one, round two was later in the evening and that was mostly just for him. I am not going to say it didn't feel good and around the time he was blowing his wad into me I wanted more and more to come all over his dick but.... it was kind of payback for an earlier confession :( he was nice enough to let me come the first time... I figured I shouldn't press my luck.

I have to revise the contract for his ok.

I was also given permission to post pictures I want to without his consent. He likes to be surprised, and I will probably be in more trouble for NOT posting pictures than posting some.

I gotta add tho, I really do NOT understand why women like that warming stuff >.< Tingle me yes... real nice stuff... however I am looking into various types of it but that warming stuff BURNS. Sir loves it on his dick tho.

You know your kinda screwed when you watch his eyes light up at the thought of punishment fucks in pussy and ass with the warming lube.

Contract or no contract, I now have to carry a small bottle of it in my purse at all times :( I am Hoping he adds the sensitization gel to the list cuz that stuff I like. However we discussed the possibility of me being ordered to the bathroom or something away from home if I act up to apply it myself.

Gotta keep reminding myself, my pussy is his. If he wants it to burn, it burns. If he wants it to tingle, it tingles. If he wants it iced, it is iced. My job is to keep my legs open for his wishes, and if I don't he makes sure they will not be closed.

Roller Coasters and Wet T's

Our life has been an unsettling roller coaster. Totally abnormal events have poked away at what we where trying to put into place. Doubts and more questions.

I am also feeling a little comfort in a few peoples journals. Through others words I figure myself out more but also seeing that they are not all so young I feel uncomfortable being here... I really didn't realize how many older people where practicing and it puts me at ease... and makes me want to poke my head in the door a little more.

With that perhaps it is time to push myself a wee tad, or him? I got tired of waiting for permission to post the picture :) This is from a little photo set that I did for him, it got his attention quite nicely. I am thinking he liked the ones where I played with the clothes pin too, but I want more feed back...

Needy

So, anyone else ever feel like they are not really as owned as pretend to be and feel more like a pain in the ass that is too needy?

Being owned changed its meaning in my little world... also known as my head.

I didn't fade off into the sunset.... really!

Medical and life reared its ugly head but I am still here and Sir is chomping at the bit to get things back on track.

Suffice to say he went after his backdoor action more this week and I got left hanging for ... lets just say I have been pushing his buttons. When the time comes I am thinking that the last time my butt was sore will not compare to this time.

I have an "I want" list a mile long. *groans* Figuring out where to start is the hard part.

I am going to ask for permission to post a picture, so perhaps tomorrow :)

Loving the words

A back massage to get through a trying day turned into a backdoor assault, but a needed assault.

To make a shorter much more to the point story, my favorite part was trying to "win" and encourage him sliding into a more welcoming hole, but he grabbed my hips and brought my ass back to him stating, "Get your ass back here" and went to town.

Yummm... more of that Sir, take what you want... no more asking.

Yea, sometimes

a lot of times...

I need that.