TMI

1. I lost my virginity at 18, in the back of a car, on prom night. Where and when did you lose yours? :( Actually I had anal sex first on his living room floor, I think we first actually did it in my bed though... lets just say not real memorable.
2. I think my ass is my best sexual feature. What is yours? I guess I would have to go with cleavage. However I think my eyes are a nice feature as well as I have gotten a lot of compliments on my calves.
3. A recurring theme in my fantasies is being slammed up against the wall. Do you have a recurring fantasy or a theme to your fantasies? ropes or chains and forced orgasms... totally yummie
4. I love watching guys masturbate. Do you enjoy watching others (a partner or a stranger) masturbate? I like it when he masturbates on me but other than that I think that it would be more fun watching a girl and find out "how" she does it. Guys are pretty much just wackin' and that is it ya know?
5. I hate when guys are quiet in bed. I like to hear you moaning as you cum. Do you like you partners quiet? Are you quiet? I love hearing him moan as he cums and I love it when he talks to me and says naughty things. I am probably more quiet than I want to be due to kid factor >.<
6. I love playing with nipples. Do you having your nipples played with? I love playing with all things LOL, yes I like them played with and then some *wiggles eyebrows* clamps anyone?
7. My ‘number’ is between 15 and 25. What is your 'number'? My number is still trying to figure out what the number means so I can give an answer :D

Real Minds Want to Know

I cant figure out why sometimes the smart balls stay where they are supposed to and sometimes they wanna slip out and drive me crazy :( Its like my PC muscles are having their own PMS or something!

I have also found that blow jobs are a lot faster if you fuck his fingers while sucking :) Followed by "hot sauce" and a hitachi O... and another question... Why can't the heat go away after the O! Its no fair that it still keeps burning >.<

Rituals impending... that is AFTER he finds his lost dice :D

Ball Pride

I am very proud of myself. Since finding my balls I have had them in for 3 days in a row... around the 3 hour or more area for time. Rule is to have them in for when Sir comes home from work and he decides when they come out. My goal is to keep them in place and get smaller, heavier ones soon.

Drawback is losing concentration a little more often because sometimes the inner balls moving around make me go insane and fidget, or going down stairs... other times you kinda forget they are there... but that is what makes those balls moving around so totally amazing.

PC muscles of steel is my goal :)

We are working on a dice ritual. I am anxious to start it. :)

We also have been working on getting kids out of the house and into the real world... and now they seem to be moving back. It hampers play time way too much and makes me want it so much more *sigh* I find my self lost in thought to him whipping my ass with the cord of rope while he had a vibrator on my clit until I came... I came so friggin hard I was amazed.

I need amazement!

Life gets funny because Sir doesn't always understand why I like him NOT letting me come. Whats the allure. Feeling like a used slut can be intoxicating... much more than alcohol itself.

Very Smart Balls

The first time I was with him I remember laying on the floor with him standing over me, I was in kind of a long nightgown with nothing underneath... he stood over me and undid his belt buckle and his pants.. then the sound of the zipper before he dropped his pants and took me.

Until that moment I never realized what the sound of the zipper could do for me, or the vision of the belt coming off.

Last night he kind of threw me over the bed, spread me open and slipped out the ben-wa balls very slowly, I imagine he watched them kind of plop out of my pussy. They are the smart balls with the string to pull them out.

Then I heard it, the zipper... and it blew me out of my mind. He pushed me down harder on the bed and took me. I didn't come and... well I guess that was the right thing because I got off twice while he was at work.

Why is it that doing all that made me feel more womanly? Home pushing down on my as he rammed himself into me, he would lean back and I would get chills thinking about him watching his dick fuck me silly. I don't know if he was but my head sure enjoyed thinking he was. He felt huge like he was trying to fuck through my pussy as far as he could go.

When I have a easier time keeping the smart balls in we will get some of the smaller heavy ones to use.

My new task is making sure that when he comes home from work the smart balls are in me, and they are to stay in me until he takes them out or tells me I can take them out.

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I forgot to mention putting the homemade ginger and pepper Vaseline on his cock. In return he took some and rubbed it into my clit, then fucked me silly till he came... stopping before I did >.<

Feel the heat

Analyzing my brain... if you don't like it, why do you want it?

The first time that hot oil touched my puss I was cussing and I don't think I stopped for a half hour. He felt my wrath, or rather heard it. I can't even remember if we had sex after that, I sure wasn't in the mood.

So he looks at me in dismay when we buy more... when I remember to buy some.

I was thinking more about the why of it all.

It isn't that its hot that turns me on, cuz DAMN it can get HOT.

I like him putting it on me because he knows I wont like it, but he does it anyway. Its like a little signal to my brain that that burning puss, lips, butt... is HIS and not mine. Silent messages. Everything that is burning is his to control.

Accidentally hurting me... like the first time the oil was used means nothing... just makes me irritable. BUT, if he KNOWS it is going to be hot and planned for me to feel it, it is a tremendous turn on.

When he puts some on his fingers and rubs my clit till I come it is amazing... because I don't understand how I can come but he takes it from me anyway... because its what he wants. I think it is to the point now where I can almost come easier with the hot oil because it is a mind fuck.

He had me put on the gel that is supposed to excite you before we left the house once and was surprised it did nothing. It really doesn't do much and when my head is busy it really isn't going to make me horny or make me think of my pussy. I think if he would of used the hot oil the reaction would of been one he wanted.

Heat would be the perfect substitute for noisy spankings when discipline is in order. Slap some on a clit or on a butt plug before it is used... make me be "normal" in front of kids... it would work wonders!

We went to a function the other night and I was wearing a thong. I don't usually wear underwear at all so needless to say I felt more in tune to my "sex." I liked it, a lot. I want more of that :)