Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Naughty Girl

I am feeling like a kicking and screaming child in need of sex and naughty perverse pleasures.

I wonder if I am as naughty as possible, if Santa will take it out on my hide?

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Pretty adornments

We ordered three pair of new nipple rings to play with. One black pair, one multi colored titanium pair, and a silver pair that dangles skeleton heads and what looks like a half of a handcuff.

I put the multi colored ones in for him tonight, I was a few days late with it though and it made me feel good when he made me wait to do it till he was around to watch me switch them out.

I glanced up done with the deed.. pretty colors by the way... and found my cuffs laying by my pillow to wear for the night. He locked them on to my wrists, and I asked him what would happen if I got caught with them in the morning... he replied I could tell them "Mommy was naughty"

:O

ummmm

In any case I will have to work on getting new pics for him with the new nipple rings :)

My poor Sir has been working so hard I feel bad for how tired out he is and have a severe need to please him and make him happy.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Set up to fail


It has been determined that Sir can be quite evil and plan on giving no permission yet making me come anyway... on purpose.

I felt bad and really tried not too, but it had been awhile and... I cannot remember the last time I had an orgasm like that, it kept going and going...

There is no more messing around, Sir is making sure I put on the cuffs at night around my wrists and he locks them on.

What else is coming? I am not yet quite sure...

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Evilness

Evilness is getting the smartballs, and getting your monthly buddy.

That

Just

Sucks

Friday, November 28, 2008

Loving the belt


Hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving. Mine started out with very nice.

We worked more on our contract, updated, and changed. More livable and more unlivable in some ways, but nummy ways!

I am not even quite sure how last night started. I do know I wasn't in the mood and the next thing I knew I was so close to coming I had a hard time believing it. I am used to being that "hard" come girl... I dunno.

I got my ass spanked for a bit with his belt and a brush. I leaned over on a pillow and learned one thing, it is a lot easier on me that way. I don't feel it in my thighs so much. *frowns* Who wants easy?!

I was forbidden to come. The more I am forbidden the more I want to.

I don't know what happened but the me I used to know isn't the same as she used to be. It is has been harder to masturbate to orgasm for me alone now. With him now that permission is needed it takes some stress off or something and I seem to feel more or something. So in reality, taking orgasms away from me has made me had more orgasms? I have to process this more first before I can make much sense here. I just know I adore the ride.

I wonder silently to myself if he is getting off on how wet I become when he spanks me. I do remember over half way through him running his finger down my slit and dipping it in a bit and then commenting on how wet I was. It gives me shivers, something so delightfully naughty for him to call attention to how wet I get when he spanks me. Being vocal with me the wetter I get gets me even more wet... calling me on my horniness makes me more horny.

I cannot "feel" the spankin today though *frowns*

Thank you Sir but may I have another?

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Smartballs

Happiness is getting the email that the smartballs have been shipped.

Of course I wasn't real happy when I realized I had a ebay coupon I could of used on them. >.<

Happiness is also getting the new contract more up to speed, work on approval and then we will implement.

Yum

I am.. however... wondering just how naughty of a picture is "allowable" by the powers that be to post here?

Like the picture I have of my pussy shaved bald as can be with a chain snug tight between my pussy lips and... oh my I can still feel the coldness of the metal on my clit from that night... I love being "chain" bound.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Busted contract, lets heat things up a bit

The contract didn't succeed as hoped by either of us. I could list all of the reasons but essentially, non-normalcy ruled. Now I realize through life there is never the "right" time, but I am saying we dealt with some unusual even for us type of things.

I get sick, and it is hard to walk from one room the the other without wheezing, funeral, I get the flu, he gets the flu.

Yea kinda hard to wanna be intimate when you really feel like visiting the toilet to throw up.

We did have our moments tho :)

We talked a bit last night and plan to revise the contract more to suit "us" because we saw some problematic spots, we ordered some smart balls, and we ordered replacement nipple rings because Sir HATES the bars. We actually odered 3 sets :)

Last night started with a neck rub to get rid of my "kink", which led to showing him a couple of updated idea's and documents.... which led to showing him my love for Bang Bull Well of course this led to him getting even hornier than anticipated. I had showed him a tie her up scene that used spreader bars as well, nice spankings and floggings too!

This turned into him deciding that it was spread your legs time so he could play while he watched the movie. His fingers where still full of the massing heat oil, and started burning my clit in no time at all. It burns, it hurts... I hate heating stuff on my clit.. give me ice! anything... beat my ass, clamp my nips, just ... I really hate heat stuff :(

He didn't care. He kept playing.

I moved to straddling him with my ass towards him. I was more spread open, and he could watch the movie or watch me. He grabbed the finger tip massager and started on my clit. Honestly I dont even know everything he was doing down there it just started to feel good, real good... and feeling his hard cock on my pussy mound had me begging for orgasm in no time at all. It actually surprised me because he did have his fingers in my ass with the heated stuff on them but I think I had watered down that burning sensation from my pussy. He had me begging for quite awhile, at least in my world he did. When he finally gave permission it was a relief, and this mini pulses went through my body but they kept getting stronger and stronger. It felt so good!

I then sat up and slid him inside me and started to ride him with with my back still to him. He was able to grab my hips and force himself harder and further into me, and reach around and man handle my tits until he filled up my pussy with his load.

That was round one, round two was later in the evening and that was mostly just for him. I am not going to say it didn't feel good and around the time he was blowing his wad into me I wanted more and more to come all over his dick but.... it was kind of payback for an earlier confession :( he was nice enough to let me come the first time... I figured I shouldn't press my luck.

I have to revise the contract for his ok.

I was also given permission to post pictures I want to without his consent. He likes to be surprised, and I will probably be in more trouble for NOT posting pictures than posting some.

I gotta add tho, I really do NOT understand why women like that warming stuff >.< Tingle me yes... real nice stuff... however I am looking into various types of it but that warming stuff BURNS. Sir loves it on his dick tho.

You know your kinda screwed when you watch his eyes light up at the thought of punishment fucks in pussy and ass with the warming lube.

Contract or no contract, I now have to carry a small bottle of it in my purse at all times :( I am Hoping he adds the sensitization gel to the list cuz that stuff I like. However we discussed the possibility of me being ordered to the bathroom or something away from home if I act up to apply it myself.

Gotta keep reminding myself, my pussy is his. If he wants it to burn, it burns. If he wants it to tingle, it tingles. If he wants it iced, it is iced. My job is to keep my legs open for his wishes, and if I don't he makes sure they will not be closed.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Roller Coasters and Wet T's


Our life has been an unsettling roller coaster. Totally abnormal events have poked away at what we where trying to put into place. Doubts and more questions.

I am also feeling a little comfort in a few peoples journals. Through others words I figure myself out more but also seeing that they are not all so young I feel uncomfortable being here... I really didn't realize how many older people where practicing and it puts me at ease... and makes me want to poke my head in the door a little more.

With that perhaps it is time to push myself a wee tad, or him? I got tired of waiting for permission to post the picture :) This is from a little photo set that I did for him, it got his attention quite nicely. I am thinking he liked the ones where I played with the clothes pin too, but I want more feed back...

Monday, November 10, 2008

Needy

So, anyone else ever feel like they are not really as owned as pretend to be and feel more like a pain in the ass that is too needy?

Being owned changed its meaning in my little world... also known as my head.

Friday, November 7, 2008

I didn't fade off into the sunset.... really!

Medical and life reared its ugly head but I am still here and Sir is chomping at the bit to get things back on track.

Suffice to say he went after his backdoor action more this week and I got left hanging for ... lets just say I have been pushing his buttons. When the time comes I am thinking that the last time my butt was sore will not compare to this time.

I have an "I want" list a mile long. *groans* Figuring out where to start is the hard part.

I am going to ask for permission to post a picture, so perhaps tomorrow :)

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Loving the words

A back massage to get through a trying day turned into a backdoor assault, but a needed assault.

To make a shorter much more to the point story, my favorite part was trying to "win" and encourage him sliding into a more welcoming hole, but he grabbed my hips and brought my ass back to him stating, "Get your ass back here" and went to town.

Yummm... more of that Sir, take what you want... no more asking.

Yea, sometimes

a lot of times...

I need that.

Friday, October 31, 2008

OH NO! I lost my ball!

I lost my ball to my U shaped nipple rings *cries*

I had to put a barbell back in.

Now I am lopsided, and am going to beg for new rings to put in

Most places dont carry the 12g around here, only the 14g and I really just do not want to go smaller just to have pretty ones ya know?

Monday, October 27, 2008

Hissy Fit

Something pretty amazing happened this weekend. I found myself being more truthful than I have ever been with Sir.

We where talking on the phone and he was telling me things and I kept trying to move the topic to sex but he would have none of it. One of those perks of ADD, he was hyperfocused and it wasn't on me at the time. We got cut off and I was frustrated and mad that he wouldn't talk with me the way I wanted so I decided to masturbate.... which I did.

The orgasm was evading me and took longer to get close too.. much more work than usual and much to my dismay I found it very... anti-climactic. I was mad for not getting my way... thought of not telling him I even did it for awhile.

He got home, we talked, I gave him the token.

He asked me how it was.. I said horrible :( I did it cuz I was mad and it just was a lousy orgasm. I felt empty afterwards. HOWEVER, I was totally taken aback by my honesty, I admitted to him that I was being a spoiled brat and having a hissy for not getting my way. Usually when I get like that it is the last thing I would share with him and I would get over it... but not today. It was like the dinamic changed.

I have been thinking a lot about that.

I also admited to him today that I have used his ADD and forgetting against him this week because he gave me a date to do something and I didn't do it... I knew he would forget.

Last night dreams plagued me, orders mixing in with dream orders and when I woke with the cloudy head I had to think of what true orders where and what dream orders where... it was odd.

So wherever this new world takes us, it is changing the way we behave with each other and I really like that. He touches me different, I cannot remember if I wrote that here before or not, I know I told it to him. He feels me, doesn't really grope... not that he couldn't or shouldn't... I am just saying that he feels me up staring at me knowing I will not move his hand away and he can do whatever he wishes. It is no more grab and wonder if she will spank his hand away. He finds that in his world away from home he is becoming more assertive as well.

I cleaned up all the toys and organized the toybox today. I hope he finds it to his liking. I was supposed to do it last week.... in my dream world he commanded me to move it closer to his side of the bed for easier access. I decided that even if it was a dream I should do that. Right now he has been ordering me to get things from and he can still do that, I just figure he should be able to grab things quickly if he feels the need.

Last night we looked at youtube and bondage rope techniques, I love the bondage rope corset... and the collar!

Saturday, October 25, 2008

Tagged

Yummie, my first TAG!

Thank you Slavegirl!

The rules…………………
Link your tagger and list these rules on your blog
Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird
Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.
Let them know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

1. I had anal sex before I had vaginal sex

2. My first orgasm was by myself with a vibrator.

3. I am the oldest child

4. When I clip coupons I always have to cut them around the dots or it drives me crazy, they cannot have all that extra paper on them! However I am not that organized at ALL in our home.

5. I am over 40

6. I love to be totally naked while Sir is clothed, it makes things so much more naughty in my head for some reason... and when he takes off his belt I find it SO sexy.

7. I do not really enjoy having sex during the day for some reason.

That part was fun but the rest is not :P I am pretty new so I really don't have anyone to really tag yet... so anyone that would like to do please play! A little note to me would be nice too ;)

A whore is a whore

I can be a journal whore sometimes, run if you don't like it :P

I am laying here thinking about Wednesday. My job was to make sure I was wet and lubed up, ready to go for any hole. I got ready for him to come home from work by jumping in the shower, extra time lathering up and even slipping a finger in my ass a couple of times.

The feelings later, grabbing the ky and smearing it on my pussy... then putting some on my finger and working it up my ass... not once but 3 times. I wondered what he would think if he was watching me do it. I think before fantasies took over my head when I would touch myself, now I have visions of him watching me getting off in various ways. Last week when I was masturbating it was almost a sin to just use the vibrator and get a quickie, he would want me to do something interesting to tell him about... so my head works on new things, delicous things.

However, I would like to know when I become such an ass whore cuz I want it all the damn time it seems.

Friday, October 24, 2008

Arguments and bunny ears

We had an argument, or should I say I had one? Miscommunication monster rears its ugly head?

We are both still getting the hang of things and I should have more faith and be more patient. The evening ended will though.

I presented myself to Sir and he checked to see if I kept myself wet and lubed, that was my task for the day. Keep both area's ready for entry if he so wished. He played with my clit until it was very hard to keep my position and I started slipping a bit. I then gave him the items for that I wanted him to ok for our orgasm tokens. He has given me 4 tokens to orgasm at any time that I want but I must tell him after I use them immediatly. He then had me get the toys he requested. The bunny, rope and sensitizing gel.

He rubbed the gel into my clit, put on my big lether collar, then played with our bondage tape and put it over my mouth and eyes. He propped my ass up on a big pillow, and grabbed the rope, tying my legs up to our headboard so they where pulled up and spread. Here is where I get kind of lost, I know he spanked my pussy a couple of times, and swated my ass a little with the rope.. but mostly it was a bunny dildo invasation. I just know I came and came hard and it was followed by him fucking my pussy.

Thankfully later in the evening after being unbound we had another session. The night seems more like a blur now.

I think the most suprising thing for me right now is I didn't realize how it would make me ache for him more. Want him to touch me more and more, I want sex more... need it more.

When we first talked about tokens I thought 4 would be pleanty, I mean we are having sex more and I want him to have all my orgasms but now it is like becoming more addicted, and I don't know if is the orgasms themselves or what leads up to them.

I am thankful for bondage tape, because the orgasms are so intense it is hard to keep quiet when I need to.

I need to get done my task for the day, writing him a fantasy story. Getting a glimse in my head.

Backrubs

This morning started with me not feeling to well but a backrub that was oh so good. He has the touch and is totally gifted in that area.

He then decided to start poking at my backside with his cock which I promptly clenched shut. He was using the warming backrub lotion and I HATE IT down that way and.... I believe he took great pleasure making sure it dripped down to my ass creating a burning sensation. The cool air makes it feel better but you keep your legs closed so more doesn't get there... He knows how to push my buttons.

We ended up in a little wrestling match with him flipping me over, pinning me down and fucking me with a hot dick with more warming oil on it till my pussy was on fire in a not so good for me way. Give me ice to turn me on, make me take a cold shower not a warm one to get me horny.

When he was done I just layed there with my legs open letting the air try and cool off the burning.

I was a little sassy yesterday and he was doing what was best for me so I would take care of myself but I didn't want that...

Lets just say he pretty much marked his turf this morning. Then tormented me by reading spanking things from the Bondage Library till he had me squirming and wet. I believe he is into orgasm denial at the moment, figuring I had my fill of them a couple nights ago... which is another story in itself.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Changes

One minute until the contract is valid.

Ding

We have a strict contract for the next month. I found a contract online and tailored it to our needs and what we are looking for and presented it to my Owner. He made changes and we worked with it until we both agreed with all items. It is complex and detailed, with what is expected of me as his pet and with what is expected from him as my Owner.

Many daily items are changing with what I am required to do. Required is a funny word, its what I want to do, need it. It will help me move forward in other areas of my life as well.

I found myself masturbating twice today and promptly text Sir to tell him, he seemed very happy. The first time was ok, but just ok. The second time was amazing. I was reading Collared: my life as a slave in one of her older stories about anal sex and being taken, my mind traveled back in time to a few short days ago and I could feel Sir fucking my ass... in the story he was saying "Mine" as he fucked her and my head turned everything around with my Owner pounding my ass saying mine over and over so I would never forget it and I came so hard I squeeled. I am usually silent and very "get the job done" when I masturbate so I dont have the bigger ones that often. It was long and intense.

Sir came home from work and I read him the contract and we discussed a few things before I had to leave the house. He then demanded me to bare my pussy and then fucked me. He ended up fingering me some more and rubbing my clit and I was oh so close before the blasted phone rang. We each then went our seperate ways.

Our new ritual, me tucking him in and presenting myself to him. He will finger me wherever he wishes or use and object. It is his wish to go to bed nightly with the smell of my pussy on his fingers, not necessarily and orgasm for me but I love his touch. "Make me come" he replied. With great enthusiasm I mounted him and rode him, grinding my clit into his body and it felt oh so good, and he came deep inside me and I milked him with all I could muster... until my pussy and I where, "Dismissed" and I had to get off him. Trying hard not to wiggle and push myself into the bed with my hips and wishing the bed sheets ........ ugh....

I came twice today, and so did he. It should be fair right? *groans*

I dont want to be able to orgasm every time, I want every orgasm to be his... I am just starting to realize how hard that will be... butI really want someone that will say NO PET, not today... and actually NOT get what I want.

I need to come up with some homemade toys, fix the toybox, learn positions, and... the daily theme for the day will be officially "Wet and Lubed Wednesday" I am to make sure my pussy is always wet and my ass is very easy to penitrate for the day. He will be checking to make sure off and on.

On the flip side I realized how hard it will be on him to remember some of the items and be making corrections. It is kind of a full time job too really.

Realizations

I worked on our contract, which of course got me very wet and thinking of waking him... I want to, I want to show him the contract and have him belt my ass with welts for waking him up so late when he has to work in the morning and.. and..... I dont want him to let me cum, I want him to make me wait till he is ready for it... to enjoy not giving me what I want.

He created the bondage monster in me.

Uncomfortable in ones body, that is me... when he ties me up it isn't about what I want, its what he wants. I cant stop him from anything. Expose my sex and make comments and I squirm. Blindfolded with the lights on knowing he is taking in every part of me, and I have no choice is amazing.

Dont even get me started on what it feels like to get a backrub and then feel his fingers trace circles around my ass and slowly push it in watching me pucker around him.... later his thumbs slip in my ass spreading me.

Slow, not giving me what I want... I love that. Torment me... pretend you dont want me while I am spread open and tied for your viewing pleasure, yes my wonderful Owner, that is your fault too from the first time you tied me and left the room with the vibrators inside me making me cum over and over... propped on that pillow that seemed to turn so damn hard under me when my nipples turned like little hard rocks that where pierced. Laying on them when I am that horny hurts so bad... or should I say hurts so good and makes me even more wet. Funny part about that night was I didn't know for sure he was gone, I couldn't see. For all I knew he was watching me, watching me hump the vibrator thinking what a nastly little slut I was.

Take me

Take a look inside at the real me inside my head, use me ... but make me wait... beg for that orgasm, I dont want to get everything I want Sir, I want to take everything you want to give me.

*visions of being tied to those ceiling bolts you keep talking about*

Monday, October 20, 2008

What have you learned today pet?

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Sunday, October 19, 2008

Toys, contracts, clits OH MY

I have made some requests and sent them to Sir to look over. I am new at this stuff and I did talk them over with him first... at first he was surprised but then he seemed to enjoy the idea. We are working over a month contract of sorts to work on.

I also took some pictures for him this afternoon, twice as the first ones I took I accidentally deleted. They will only be posted if I get permission to do so. I am hoping he is proud of them to want to show off what he has.

I have learned today that clothespins hurt on a clit hood, and it is hard to leave it there long enough to get a picture for him... how do people do it??!

I am also quite interested in sensitizing gel and the fun factory smartballs.

We have had a problem in the past with going to long without sex, I am hoping with a few new daily tasks during the next month it will be a reminder that we are there for each other and need each other.

That and I need the sore muscles from being used... it feels so damn good.


Added: EEP... oh happy day we found some sensitizing gel at the store tonight.

Just say no to the mornings?

I can be absolutely certain that since the start of this journal our sex life has picked up.

This morning I vaguely remember my puss being rubbed and I believe I kind of tried to shut them and he opened them up. To fully understand this you have to know I HATE mornings, I hate getting up and I really... really do not like the morning sex except for the rare occasion.

I really had no choice, half asleep he put on my wrist cuffs and attached them to the headboard and the assault began on my puss with the hot pink dildo. Soon to be followed by the vibrator on my clit. I believe the clothes pins placed on my pussy lips definitely kept my legs open for him, so I am not sure if it was done because I have forgotten a few things or if it was done because I had tried to shut my legs a few times.

It ended with a blow job and a mouth full of cum.... as I drifted back off to sleep with the leather bracelet he put on my wrist and telling me I couldn't take it off.

I still am not into mornings... *puts a hex on them*

Have I mentioned thought that I love his dick, it is perfect for me.. the perfect fit. Plus when he gets uber horny it gets a lil bigger... not really longer persay but wider and OMG I really love that.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Crotchless panties work nice for anal sex :)

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Thursday, October 16, 2008

oooooooo *pouts*

I need someone to take my hand and help me figure out how to add these urls and such... this is new to me because I am usually very good with this stuff.

I have seen how some people have their pictures in the side in a bar and I sooo wanna learn how to do that too.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

My New Rules

Sir and I had a long talk tonight.

He came home and rubbed my puss and fingered me for awhile and walked out the door. :( He made me stay at home and masturbate. I had to make it good because I was not going to get to cum later.

Later he made me lean over the bed while he held my arms behind my back and grabbed my hair and fucked me until he exploded in my cunt. My favorite part is when his hot cum dripped out of my pussy and over my clit, it made me squirm and I am still so horny again I get wiggly just laying on my tummy writing the post.

Back to our talk... I have some rules, very few to start with but it is a start.
  1. I must text message him every time I masturbate to orgasm during the day and make sure he knows how many orgasms I have a day. This might get me in trouble because I know I have told Sir no then masterbated later :( I masturbate more than he realizes.
  2. My first sentence to Sir must be to ask him if there is anything I can do for him. This must happen every day or there will be punishment. If he leaves without me being awake or around I must text him asking the question.
  3. I have to email him daily with at least one new sexual thing I have found out about. (tasks, ways to exercise sexually, new punishments and the like... ) My porn addiction now has a purpose and I am to constantly be thinking of him while I do it.
  4. I have to wake him up at least once a month offering myself to him and giving him a blow job.
  5. I am to spread my legs on command, I may no longer say no... ever. My body is his to use regardless of who is around. If someone catches us he will deal with it but I will never stop him from touching me however he wishes. This includes nipples and my ass. If we are having a disagreement, he still has the right to remind me that I am his and must follow this rule.
  6. I must make sure all toys are clean and have batteries at all times, if Sir wants to use them they must be ready for him immediately.
That is pretty much it for now. I am really bad with spreading on command. I have told him no a lot or moved his hand. I am his, this will change.

I asked for this change, because he has always allowed me to touch him and never pulled away. It is time for me to give him the same gift in return.

Ultimately he is taking over our sex life so it meets his expectations. This may also include him fucking me and leaving me to masturbate myself afterwords to cum. I will no longer complain about non orgasms but request being able to masturbate, there may be times when I am not allowed to have an orgasm.

I have pretty much been in charge for the past 8 plus years of sex and am also responsible for the lack of sex. I have input, no longer final say.

I love you Sir, take me, use me... make me beg for more. I submit to you totally Sir, and I have never felt so good and so free ever in my life. I have finally let go, and give my soul to you.

*added number 6 for a new email rule that was sent to me this evening*

The lists my owner asked me to make

The list is the promised list of things that I do not like Sir.
  1. Warming jell that makes me hot on/in my cunt and ass
  2. Ice inside my cunt and/or ass
  3. Doing it in the shower
  4. Not being able to cum
  5. Doing the 69 position
  6. Asking for what I want in sex using the sexual words
  7. Having to be quiet while you use me when the kids are home.
  8. clips on my cunt lips
  9. Brushing my nipple clamps and swatting at them with your hand
Things that make me uncomfortable/shamed.
  1. Possibly being caught having sex
  2. Doing things mid day when it is so light out, it makes me feel like you can see everything
  3. admitting how much I like you doing things to me
  4. Using the words Cunt/Cock/Twat
  5. Masturbating in front of you when you are showing no interest in me
  6. posing for pictures doing nasty things
  7. Having you see me cum while you fuck me with things... like toys or non/toys
  8. How wet I get watching the hogtied movies and wish it was me
Things I have masturbated to that are hard for me to admit
  1. clips on my pussy
  2. you using that horrible hot massage oil
  3. you making me lube up your dick and my ass and spreading my cheeks wide so you could fuck me.
  4. You slapping my clit saying how naughty I am for having such a fat bit clit and me enjoying being fucked by a dildo
  5. You catching me masturbating when I am not supposed to be
  6. Having you check each part of my body to see if it meets your expectations, making me lay and spread my lips wide for you, making me spread my ass cheeks

I came hard today Sir, but I still want more...

Last night before I could fall asleep I woke up Sir and basically road him until I felt I succeeded in my goal of riding him until his balls where wet. He likes that and it has been awhile.

I then spent my morning before a nap watching nasty videos of women tied up and forced to orgasm and I came all over big daddy V. There was no permission to do it or anything just a need. I love forced orgasms and the thought of the taking of my body and making it do things beyond my will.

My ass feels better today, unfortunately.

I am yearning for a new butt plug *sigh* one that can be worn easier during the day under clothing. Ours has a round base and keeps sneaking out *growls*

I finally showed Sir the blog today and the posts, and helped him make his and set it up. He is very busy so probably will not write a lot but I am hoping upon hope I get some tasks and such to do to please him more often.

We had another play date about a week and a half ago that was simply yummie too. He put in a porn and made me take off all my clothes and lie on the couch with my pussy towards him and masturbate while he watched the porn. My favorite part is the collar attached to the nipple clamps and him banging me over and over with those fingers of his while he chewed on my nipple. I came so hard!

We ended up in his chair with me riding his dick and rocking back and forth while my clamps would rub against his chests and be very ouchie... and I ate it up! In trying to figure out what "I" am I think I am more of a pain slut when it comes to my nipples. However when he layed me over a vibrator and whipped my ass I came pretty damn hard too so maybe just a pain slut? I dunno what you would call it but I do know what I like.

He did a spank on the pussy the other night and that was a uber turn on too, more more more...... I didn't like the clothes pin on my pussy lips and he took them off... then I found myself wishing they where back on. *sigh* Maybe I just dont know what I want?

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Thumbs up for a sore bum!

I am happily reminded every time I head into the bathroom today that I have a few sore spots on the back side. Kind of makes me smile and remember.

Its funny, the first time Sir was so worried he felt horrid for the marks, things are changing. :)

It was pretty much the same with the nipple piercings, at first he was leery but boy did he sure like watching her play with my nipples to put them in. Now, years later, if I ever have to remove them he is on me like crazy to put them back in and he likes anything but barbells. I have been wearing the upside down horse shoe looking ones for quite some time now. Sometimes when they are out I leave them out for a bit but I start to feel naked. I do not have very sensitive nipples so the piercings really help. We even have our own taper to get them back in if they are out for too long. I personally like it because they are tender and sore again, uber sensitive to the touch and I LOVE LOVE LOVE being constantly perky! I am wondering what could be put on them during play time to make sure they stay at attention when they don't have clamps on them?

We also talked last night about getting rid of puss hair, he doesn't like shaving but used to wax me and that was fun but time consuming. We are going to try some cream. I personally like the sensation of being bald, and it gives a whole new meaning to being wet lemme tell you. I like him doing it for me, I feel kinda like the naughty little girl who needs grooming. I need another waxer kit... yes I do!

How boring are first posts?

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I find my butt deliciously still tender from the earlier night activities. We have decided to spend a little more time setting the mood for our bondage fun.

I'll admit it, I love love love a forced orgasm, they are my favorite. Which is probably why I love bondage so much. During the day there are things to do, constantly running things to make sure it all runs smoothly. When the bedroom door shuts I no longer want to run things, I want to lose myself in him, pleasing him, being pleased by him, being taken by him.

Our life is not 24/7 nor do I want it to be. We pick and choose, and are playing with some more daily assignments or tasks to keep us being reminded that our sex life is important and deserves the "time" too.

My personal kinks:
  1. Being cold, a warm shower turns me off for awhile... a cold one makes me perky and my body comes alive.
  2. Cold metal on my skin, there is nothing like a cold chain resting between your pussy lips for making a person squirm.
  3. Spread my legs.. wider... wider... I love the thought of myself totally exposed to him, hold me open.
  4. Talk dirty to me, tell me what a juicy cunt I have and how huge my clit is.
  5. Take the naughty girl to the bathroom and shave her so you can see everything better, no hiding the pussy from Sir!
  6. nipple clamps, whoever came up with those deserves an award I swear! Can I have one of every kind please?
  7. anal sex is yummie
  8. precum tastes so friggin good!
  9. Bondage... tie me up and my pussy throbs... seriously.
  10. Sir chews on my nipples and it drives me outta my mind
I love subspace in my head, and here is where I will be sharing it with him... and for him, so Sir can see more inside of me than ever before.

I have been with Sir for around 9 years, though I liked handcuffs now and then it was him that brought the bondage rope into the scene as he tied me, propped me with vibrators and walked out of the room leaving me to orgasm all over the place before he came in with the camera to take pictures. Its his fault I became obsessed with bondage and now beg for more.