What are you going to do?

Guilt snuck in followed by confession. Blaming him for something that I was part of too but I didn't admit my part at first.

He whispers in my ear, "What are you going to do about that, to make up for it?"

Tingling feelings rushing through my cunt wondering how a sentence can do that. "Finish the wrist cuffs that you where nice enough to say I could make to sleep in every night instead of the leather ones..."

"What else," he replies.

More tingles.... "Finish the contract and make it a longer length of time like you asked?"

"What else," he replies.

"Make sure the positions are practiced before we go to bed?"

"What else," he replies.

I am quiet, searching for the magic sentence he wants.

"What is a good pet going to do NOW to make up for it?"

It ends riding on top of Sir rocking back and forth, trying to slam onto his hips with the same force he is rising up and thrusting himself into me. Feeling him pinch my nipples harder and harder the closer he gets... my head imagining that this nipple pain wasn't for me but for him, because he wanted my nipples to hurt and throb when he filled up my pussy with this hot load of come.

I knew better than to ask to come myself.

I broke a rule.
I hid a rule.

I broke a rule.
I tried to hide it.
In hiding it, I made Sir feel bad.

I was wrong, very wrong, and more honest with him last night than I feel I have been in a very long time.

I am deeply sorry for what happened last night Sir.

Who says bald isn't beautiful?

After I took a hot steamy bath I retired to our bedroom where Sir used some nair on my pubic area as the hair was growing back already. Afterwards it was followed by a shave to get missed hairs... it was deliciously naughty. He would spread me open and look for awhile and I wouldn't know exactly what he was doing or looking at. He did manage to do a little clit stroking though. He then rolled me over and worked on my back side... but only after he inserted a vibrating egg in my pussy.

After he was done with the shaving he fucked me silly with the egg still inside of me... he then grabbed another vibrator and used that on me until I was begging to come.

We ended with a long hot shower together.

We went shopping and picked up some more lubes to play with. We got some KY, Wet original and wet flavored too! Oh oh oh, we picked up some containers to sort some of the toys a little better too.

So I have a nice hairless puss again and I love it, and really love it when he shaves me like that. It so arousing, and kind of taboo...

Whatcha thinking about?

He asked me that... and I gotta say my answer was nothing compared to what he was thinking about.

Sir, "I was thinking about sticking a finger up your ass and whipping your butt, and how tight your ass would squeeze my finger"


ummmmmm ok

now I am thinking of that too

*squirms*

Yes... use me more Sir!

I fulfilled my morning duties and went back to bed this morning, Sir was going to stay up despite the fact that he didn't get much sleep either.

Later I was woken to hard breaths in my ear and my ass and pussy being stroked. He had a lust air about him as he basically took what he needed for the day... I whispered the porn must have been good... he said it was and took off for the shower to start his day and leave for work.

I snuggled into the warm bed with a freshly fucked pussy, happy and content.

This evening ended with me on top of him as he decided to once again indulged in that which is his, which is great but... ahem... my pussy is getting sore :(

I used the smart balls for about an hour today. Time to tighten some muscles... rawr

Reflections

Sir has been putting the freshly shaved pussy to work, and pampering it as well with nice oil rub downs. He likes no hair in the way and how his cock feels rubbing between my lips. He the is saying it is time to get another waxing machine to take care of hair in a little more fun way. Nothing like sex after a fresh wax when the whole area feels so alive. Just the thought of it makes me squirm a bit.

We have started a meditation before bed ritual that seems to be working nicely for us. We are working on keeping it going for a couple of weeks and will see where it will go from there.

Together we are also finding that my orgasms are getting bigger/stronger. Its hard to tell if they are one big long one or more than one... just when I think I am coming down it kind of starts up again.

Sir, I am sorry to report that my thighs are not hurting as bad as they where last night *wicked grin* perhaps I need a do over?

Making amends

Fucking ourselves silly for an hour and half is a good way to put me in check.

Thank you Sir, for getting me even when I do not get myself.

Real life can KMA... when is it going to be my turn?

What do you do when the best of plans and intentions always seem to fall through?

Real life... happens.

Life would be easier if I just wanted to simply get off... instead of wanting so much more.

Big nipples turn me on... more please Sir?

I spent the afternoon bending in a ton of odd ways that my body isn't used to and shaved my pussy for Sir to come home too, I tried to get it all as well as shave around the ass... talk about feeling super sexy. I love to be smooth. (Sir is going to check me over more tomorrow and make sure all the hair is missing)

I then grabbed my crotchless panties and threw on my lycra pants. Topped it with a bra that likes to have my breasts tumble out of it and a sweater cut so low that half the time there is a breast falling out of it.

I met him in the bedroom, he read what I had written and was quite surprised. He was happy with what I had come up with. He then changed for work and I knelt before him and sucked on his cock for awhile. He pushed me on the bed and took off my pants, quite pleased with the bare pussy before him... he dove in with a very powerful suck on my clit as his hand reached up and was squeezing my nipple between his fingers. Looking down and seeing the top of his head and then seeing how huge my nipple was between his fingers drove me out of my mind.

Orgasms will wait until I have entirely made up for my transgressions.

He slipped inside me and filled me with come, I didn't want him to leave and I think he was quite amused as he walked out of the bedroom door.

This evening he oiled up my shaven areas and ended by fucking me silly until he filled my pussy with another load... and he drifted of to sleep.

My pussy is wanting...

I am hoping for a trip tomorrow deep into subspace. My thoughts getting lost in him spanking me and hitting me all over my body, with reminders I am his. Smacking a clit with his hands as he reminds me it is his, then my pussy, my ass, my breasts.. my nipples... I feel the need to be used and "marked"

Sir liked the clover clamp pictures. I forgot to ask him if I could post them though... tomorrow is another day...

A Vow to Make Things Right

Making things right.

I made a vow last night to make things right. Sir was wonderful in his plannings and I totally dissed him. I was hurting some, I denied some... yet even when I wasn't hurting earlier in the day I ignored. Once more he knew I hurt and massaged me and I still denied. If I where to go back further I masturbated twice without him home ... without permission, and with the new clover clamps. I could get into the "why" of it all but in the end it doesn't matter.

In reading I realized that it wouldn't even be any fun to "punish" if there was no trying to please in the first place. I am pushing, and honestly in the forums I have been reading they do say ignore them if they push, they are supposed to remember and try to please.

I vowed to make things right.

This morning I took the pictures he has been demanding I take off and on for weeks. This morning I poured the hot oil on my fingertips and worked it into my clit. This morning I took the butt plug and poured the hot oil over it to coat it as I inserted it into my ass. I then sat on the bed with my legs crossed forcing it in further as I applied the clover clamps to my nipples and meditated.

I reminded myself that my clit is his and I used it without permission for my gratification, I reminded myself that I used the clamps even though we decided to use them for the first time on a alone day, and I used them to get off. I then reminded myself that the burning taking place in my ass was for refusing him to touch it last night... and I reminded myself of the look of disappointment on his face last night before we slept.

I will not shower and get ready for him to come home until after the burning has subsided.

Today is preparation... of my making things up to him.

I will make up a schedule of tackling RL events and he will come home to it waiting for him. In this document I will add various things of which he can choose for me to do or make his own demand.

I will put a smile on his face so he is pleased with me again. The next 24 plus hours will be his and I will go to the extreme to make up for my actions.

I am sorry Sir.

After Sir see's the new picture I took today I will share that if he so wishes as well. Or perhaps he will... we will see what happens

In the minds eye

Hands spreading the oil up and down my body as I lay on my stomach, fingers sliding over my back, my wrists crossed over my head, yearning for those hands to lose their way and kneed my breasts with those long strokes. He doesn't though... he leaves me wanting. Feeling him work the oil into my ass cheeks, wondering if this will be the day...

His hands propping up my hips as his knee works its way in spreading my legs, he moves his body between my legs and pulls me towards him, opening me with his hard cock and pushing his way in. Doesn't matter if I am ready or not, he opens me and pounds me until he is ready to explode inside of me, knowing my moans are a sure sign that the invasion was a wanted invasion.

Curled up spooning, feeling his wet cock behind me, my legs up as my thoughts go to my still tingling pussy lips. He runs his hands up and down my hips until he reaches down to my pussy, my legs, my body... betraying my wants as I position myself so he has easier access. He laughs at me and gives me 3 hard swats on the pussy and says in an amused voice, "Whats this!?, you think you get to come?"

"Shame on you naughty girl," He states as he grabs the hot oil from the nightstand and pours it into his hand, and he rubs it all over my pussy making sure my clit is doused with the heated oil and burning more with the friction of his fingers expertly handling my clit between them. "You do not seriously think you always get what you want do you? You will not come tonight, and if I hear any complaining out of you... you will not come tomorrow either." He forces my legs back shut and rolls me on my side again as we go back to spooning, knowingly trapping the heat between my legs to last longer.

My pussy on fire, nipples like little rocks proudly adorned with their new black rings, I moan softly trying not to make to much of a fuss and wiggle too much, not wanting to risk loosing tomorrows orgasm.

His hand reaches around holding my breast, I know how he must be feeling my rock hard nipple in the palm of his hand, he knows how horny I am.

"Time to simmer down and go to sleep pet," he states and he snuggles in for the night knowing that as he sleeps... I will be burning with desire for him.

In the minds eye...

Feelng Lucky

Clover clamps where bought and paid for and are now on their way to our home. They where shipped today. :)

I am still looking at a couple of other things to order/replace. We went through things and got rid of some old things... time for some new!

Dear Sir, the Bunny hopped away to see the garbage man so we need another.

Come to Mamma lil bunny

"Take off your pants and spread your legs" he commanded. I did as I was told and lay on the bed, he grabbed the rabbit and worked it into me, little ears buzzing and humming on my clit.

Then we got to finish our "talk" and I got to pretend he wasn't getting to me when he was. Even though this happened today my thoughts are jumbled and I cannot really remember anything in terms of order... I just remember him draping and clipping cold chain over my body and feeling the coolness against my skin. I remember him staring at me as he held the rabbit inside me with one hand... while the other started playing with my nipples. Some time during all this he also put me in handcuffs.

It drove me crazy... I wanted him to grab the whole breast but he just toyed with nipples for awhile and when he did slip his hand under my bra and squeeze my breast I was in heaven.

He later pushed up my shirt and bra and put clothes pins on my nipples, and sucked on them for a bit.

All the sensations where amazing, until I was asking to come but he said no, I worked really hard at listening this time and holding off... and he helped by easing up for a bit but I was soon asking again. I cannot remember how many times I asked him, all I know is that when he said I finally could I was so happy to finally let my guard down and my orgasm started slow and got stronger and stronger. Honestly I don't know if it was one huge long one or a few stuck together because just when I thought it was going to be over I would spasm again and orgasm harder like a bunch of waves of this happening... it was very long... and honestly I was still having an orgasm when he stopped the rabbit. It was amazing.

Come to think of it he allowed me to come after I started sucking on his cock, that was the trigger that really got to me.

Me.. sucking a cock has been a trigger more than once now that makes me want to come more than anything. I am finding this hard to believe. Today the minute he stuck it in my mouth I thought back to me sucking on his dick to make him come then when he was working on me coming I was licking my face tasting him on me, feeling my face get dried come on it as the air hit.

This afternoons events ended with him pounding my pussy as he watched my breasts bounce back and forth proudly displaying clothes pins flopping back and forth with his trusts.

This evening for round two I straddled his thighs and road him until I felt him explode in my pussy.

Life is good.

Well, its good except for the part where the bunny cord is broken :(

I am supposed to find 3 new possible replacement toys.

Happy New Year!

Leather cuffs locked onto my wrists as he snores peacefully at my side. Real life has pecked away at any such plans for the past few weeks.

Tonight was a sweet very much alone time for us yet it seemed we had dear aunt flo come by to torment us even more.

*sighs*

I have also managed to lose the black nipple rings we bought :(

I also tend to push him more than he likes, testing boundaries and seeing if he will really do it. Still trying to figure things out... I know he gets frustrated but I am more than willing to let him take out that frustration on me :) I did get a pretty good swat on the ass tonight but I would of loved to have some more.

This evening I have been fascinated by auras and chakras and have been doing some reading. In the chakra test I found that my "closed" chakra's really are quite ... well quite me. Sir agreed.

Perhaps this is a good time for reflection and working on some things with the new year here and all.