Ball Pride

I am very proud of myself. Since finding my balls I have had them in for 3 days in a row... around the 3 hour or more area for time. Rule is to have them in for when Sir comes home from work and he decides when they come out. My goal is to keep them in place and get smaller, heavier ones soon.

Drawback is losing concentration a little more often because sometimes the inner balls moving around make me go insane and fidget, or going down stairs... other times you kinda forget they are there... but that is what makes those balls moving around so totally amazing.

PC muscles of steel is my goal :)

We are working on a dice ritual. I am anxious to start it. :)

We also have been working on getting kids out of the house and into the real world... and now they seem to be moving back. It hampers play time way too much and makes me want it so much more *sigh* I find my self lost in thought to him whipping my ass with the cord of rope while he had a vibrator on my clit until I came... I came so friggin hard I was amazed.

I need amazement!

Life gets funny because Sir doesn't always understand why I like him NOT letting me come. Whats the allure. Feeling like a used slut can be intoxicating... much more than alcohol itself.

Very Smart Balls

The first time I was with him I remember laying on the floor with him standing over me, I was in kind of a long nightgown with nothing underneath... he stood over me and undid his belt buckle and his pants.. then the sound of the zipper before he dropped his pants and took me.

Until that moment I never realized what the sound of the zipper could do for me, or the vision of the belt coming off.

Last night he kind of threw me over the bed, spread me open and slipped out the ben-wa balls very slowly, I imagine he watched them kind of plop out of my pussy. They are the smart balls with the string to pull them out.

Then I heard it, the zipper... and it blew me out of my mind. He pushed me down harder on the bed and took me. I didn't come and... well I guess that was the right thing because I got off twice while he was at work.

Why is it that doing all that made me feel more womanly? Home pushing down on my as he rammed himself into me, he would lean back and I would get chills thinking about him watching his dick fuck me silly. I don't know if he was but my head sure enjoyed thinking he was. He felt huge like he was trying to fuck through my pussy as far as he could go.

When I have a easier time keeping the smart balls in we will get some of the smaller heavy ones to use.

My new task is making sure that when he comes home from work the smart balls are in me, and they are to stay in me until he takes them out or tells me I can take them out.

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I forgot to mention putting the homemade ginger and pepper Vaseline on his cock. In return he took some and rubbed it into my clit, then fucked me silly till he came... stopping before I did >.<

Super Soaker

I have decided that I like it when he picks things for me to wear, it kinda takes the guess work out of things and then I add things that I hope he will like.

Teddy with open areas for the breasts... and over the knee socks, adorned with smutty make up that wouldn't be complete without bright red lips and a high pony tail.

I soon found myself with my collar and nipple clamps, bent over a pillow with a plug up my ass. Thinking that life is grand... with music playing for just me to hear while he watched a porn.

I ummm... soaked the bed with a major G-spot orgasm. Like REALLY soaked it... O.o

We did it a few more times after that... honestly it kinda gets foggy the rest of that session though.

I am having problems cleaning all the toys though :( I cannot find the jewel plug, its like it ran away! I gotta find it cuz you can't be a anal whore with out it! At least I do not want to be ;)

I almost forgot, we made up some Vaseline/ginger/red pepper stuff but never got around to using it :( I hope this weekend....

Negotiation

Being that I got turned on by the nipple pain a couple hours later and took some pictures with the ball gag before I leaned over the bed on my handy dandy Hitachi, hiked up my dress and pretended he was behind me as I spread my ass cheeks apart and got off by grinding down on the hitachi..... I think I have lost my room for negotiation :(

Perhaps if I post a couple pics he will let me off easier?

I will start off with an old... Jewel pic that I should of posted months ago :(

He looked at his jewel placed inside my ass, and decided that he need a picture of his new jewel... with help from me. Obviously I didn't mind posing with how wet I was...

Red lips to silently tell you I will suck your cock whenever you want me too...
Drool to let you know I will always drool over you.

Through the looking glass...

My ouchie nipple :(

My nipple hurts yes... why is it that it turns me on so much when it does? I feel like I am in heat

Dear Sir... I am going to go get myself off again...

For the love of my jewelry

I have been wracking my brain trying to figure out what it is about that butt plug jewelry that is so fascinating for me. It is deliciously naughty for me in a few different ways.

1. The smoothness of the metal makes it plop in, making it seem like my ass is kind of... sucking it up. I feel slutty, and keep waiting for some type of comment about being to eager or something.
2. The long neck is so skinny that it makes it more comfortable. Not like any other plug I have ever worn or tried.
3. Because of the slim neck it only slightly holds you open. This is more erotic to me than a larger plug, it is almost a silent statement of... "You are comfortable, but your ass is open slightly for me... as a reminder it is mine."
4. The jeweled area between my ass cheeks is almost more bothersome than the plug inserted. If you tighten to much it feels rigid. However it also is more proof that no matter how you try and clench and keep him out, he wins. Your ass will be kept open, so just give in and let it be.
5. When he taps on it and gives it a rub it makes my heart beat faster :)

My mind wanders to what it would be like to wear it for a day, if I need it taken out having to ask permission to do so... and envision laying over his lap as he strokes my ass and flicks it a bit before taking it out. Doing what I need to do and silently returning and laying over his lap again so he can reinsert the pretty jewel.

He likes to look at it, I cannot tell a lie I have also imagined him making me lean over the side of the bed, legs hanging down and spread wide for his viewing pleasure.... as he whacks off on me and rubs his come on my ass. Not allowing me to touch him or myself, and wear his come and plug for the day until he decides what to do with me.

My imagination runs wild.

I think its because I need to have those after effects... I like to feel used for awhile afterwords. I want the sore muscles, the hot oil making me burn, that vicks making your ass tingle. A reminder I am his, that doesn't disappear just because he is done with me.

Being a sub is easy, being a Dom is hard work. They have to think about how to put their sub in that place and keep her there for awhile to be happy. A happy sub is a horny sub LOL

Take me
Brake me

But it is given freely, and with trust... that no one else ever has had from me.

Jewel Butt Plug

"IT" came. Talk about giddy.

I showed him when he got home from work... a couple days later he was giving me a fabulous massage and all of a sudden I felt cold on my butt and I knew what it was...

I tried to shoo his hands away, all he did was meet it with shoving his fingers up my ass and I will be damned if it didn't feel soooo good. The next time I felt the metal it was wonderful because he has some of the heating oil on his fingers and my ass was burning up. I relaxed because I knew there would be no giv he and I didn't want to get hurt. It was like falling into sub mode.

It slipped in with very little effort. We where both surprised. The slim middle is wonderful, it makes the whole plug so comfortable. He fucked me silly.

:)

My head was in sex mode, wild ideas popping through it... hard to NOT want sex after he reaching over and gives the jewel a little tap when it is filling me up.

I am totally amazed at the comfort, and give this five stars! Really I think everyone should try it :) I think pure torture would be wearing it and NOT getting sex. I haven't worn it around the house yet... I will keep you updated ;) He says next time he needs pictures ... I cant wait!

Morning babe

Having him slip into bed fully clothed and rubbing up and snuggling in, wiggling my bottom in his crotch... does indeed make the man unbutton those pants and decide that going to work smelling like sex is a good thing.

It also makes slipping in the smart balls easier having the "natural" lube. From here on out at least two hours a day trying to keep them up there. I dont understand it. the first time I used them it was cake keeping them up where they where supposed to be, now they slip down on me so I have to tighten those muscles up, for him yes... but more so for me. It is my irritation that made me vow to two hours a day. Either that or I made the vow because of how totally amazing it feels to have on the the little weighted balls shift inside the bigger one and send a tingle up my spine.

We came up with a little new "rule" too, he absolutely hates it when I wear my hair in a certain way, so from here on out when I do I have to wear the smart balls or the baby butt plug when I wear my hair that way. He is also allowed to check and make sure I haven't forgot and respond accordingly.

The problem with this is that at home its easy to reinsert the balls, away from home not so easy. So until I can keep them up where they are supposed to be I reckon the anal plug would have to be worn when I leave the house.

I wonder what I got myself into because to be honest, I really like wearing my hair like that... it keeps it off my neck...

Yesterday was delightful as I got bent over a large pillow and he smacked my ass a bit with his plastic.. things? I dunno what they are but they feel good. They are my favorite and do not really hurt but make the ass welt up and get nice and red for him. He then fucked me silly after putting some clips on my pussy lips. We ended that session with smart ball practice and our new "deal"

O O O

Much to my amusement he tried the dab of vicks on his own ass yesterday. His revalations with it in where priceless. :)

Oh and for the record, that damn ball is big for my mouth! It bothers my jaw. I have a small mouth you see... and we did get the smallest ball. So now I am pondering what to do . It is sexy as hell though ;)

Masterbation... why not?

Why not bind each breast tight, but separate... and watch the blood flow. Then watch in wonderment how the women can have their breasts bound like that and they turn so purple. If you feel it is tight enough but they don't turn purple... then dont you wonder in amazement how tight it has to be to do it and think.. no no no... dont wanna go there.

Why not slick down the anal plug with hot oil and a naughty mind. Slide it in and wiggle mercilessly when it starts to burn. Somewhat feeling like a real cock in there with the burning sensation instead of the little plug. A game with yourself of keeping your ass tight enough to keep it in, but lets spread ludely so that you look like the lil slut you wanna be.

Why not pull out the hitachi and lay on it, low setting while laying on your belly. Laying on the tight round breasts causing more discomfort, as if tightly bound and being forced.

Why not pull up a vid about a girl crying out in pain as her ass gets fucked for the first time and remember past ass fucks and how he pulled your hips back to him when you tried to take control and get away while telling you to "Get your ass back here" while he slid his cock back in your tight ass, making it burn like the lube is doing to your own ass.

Why not feel the orgasm coming and move away... practice control. Good job... go back and watch more as your ass burns, legs spread, breasts throbbing, start thinking about him being here and making your pull apart your ass cheeks so he can get a good look of the scene, snap a few photo's of your anal assult to humiliate you later with... pull back, don't orgasm so soon.... losing battle, hitachi isnt touching you as you start coming all over the place and scream into a pillow when you thrust your hips down onto the hitachi and the orgasm gets bigger and longer.

Why not get up to walk to the bathroom after putting toys away, all but your butt plug and feel it every step you take, wondering what it would be like if you had to wear it out and about the town next time you saw him. Feeling the discomfort... taking it out and washing the plug, and putting it back.

Why not find your smart balls and shove them deep in your drenching pussy, filling your wanten cunt while you get ready for a nap. Yes, lets sleep with a filled pussy, and hope to dream about what could of been real, instead of just toys.

Why not?

Round Two

Round two with the butt plug was pretty much like round one except for he decided to fuck me with the plug really fast in the ass. I didn't much like it... prefer it just left in or slower fucking. But that is kind of the point too, what does he want...

I would think of that and kinda push my butt up and will it open and it would feel good... I then would fall into a kind of, what are you doing, place and it would hurt again. I would go back and forth. Odd strange feeling.

I have been, kinda a ass in real life. Huge amounts of stress for awhile and it isn't that I am taking it out on him, but more like wanting him to take it out more on me. I want to be lost and totally controlled for awhile. I would love one of the Wet Wednesdays where I would have to keep everything lubed up... or a day of having to ask him to take out the butt plug when I go to the bathroom, but wear it all day to remember just who is the boss.

I need a day of extremes every once in awhile, but yet I hear many say the same thing.

OOOooo and I have my favorite toys:

1. hitachi
2. we-vibe (yet it scares me too hehe)
3. butt plug (when it is used the way I want it to be)
4. my cuffs
5. the rabbit (though ours is long dead)

Leather

Red ball gag he says, no other color will do. I have the gag ordered with a chin strap attached.

We scoured over collars trying to find the one he wanted and he finally found one he would accept, I ordered it this morning.

I found a light step upon me today, amazed that a good romp with some added submission can make me feel so peaceful.

He picked up a wooden paddle today in the store and I looked at him in horror. "I dont think my bum wants wood on it." He talked about what he would write across it yet... put the paddle down. Whew... my ass is saved!

saved... for what?

Order order

Order your collar, he says... or rather writes, and describes it in great description... well in his world anyway. It left me going HUH? What does he want? How can I order something I do not comprehend?

He looked over them with me and found one he liked, I will be ordering it tomorrow.

Part two.... order a ball gag. *gulp* with comments about keeping me quiet as to not interrupt household members. Leather and red, well that was more doable but of course I made it hard and still felt the need to get it okayed before I ordered it.

So we get this worked out.

"How much trouble am I in?"

He takes out the egg and it gets put in my pussy and turned on. I reached and grabbed the new toys and his favorite one from my drawer and gave them to him.

In silence, I roll over.

He rubs my back and strokes my butt, long enough to relax me. As much as one can relax with an egg vibrating in your pussy.

He pours lube down my ass cheeks. Parting them expertly and wiggling his finger inside my bum, making sure I was coated. Fingering me for awhile and I felt a blush in my cheeks remembering how he finger fucks my ass in my sleep sometimes and I make no move to stop him.

He then slides in the anal plug, deep within.

He then took out the egg and I believe fucked me senseless with a dildo. I was dying and miserable. He wouldn't touch my clit. Propped my ass further in the air so he could get to it but it was a no go. All he did was fuck me with that "thing" over and over, while keeping the ass plug shoved deep inside me.

Miserable I say.

I knew that part of what was happening was for a problem of yesterday. My head started repeating over and over the thought of the silentwords.... That ass is mine, and I will do what I want to it.

Then it happened. Can it be? I felt my clit growing out trying to touch him in some way, not finding him and still throbbing. That flash of ... OMG I am going to come anyway was hardly finished before I was coming all over the place and gasping for air. He didn't quit, I was starting to come down, pussy starting to behave and I came all over him again.

He threw the dildo? At least I am still thinking that is what it is. He shoved his hard cock in me and fucked me silly, each thrust pushing the anal plug deeper inside me until I was shoving my face into the sheets and pillow trying to muffle another orgasm as he continued to pound me until he was done with me.

Whispered comment before he drifts off to sleep, "I am kinda a anal slut aren't I?"

The reply simple... "Yes you are."

So I jot down my thoughts, before I drift off to sleep..... pussy filled with his hot wet come mixed with mine, and sloppy lubed up ass.

This is bliss

Holding back

If there is one thing that I have learned since the hitachi has entered the picture is that I hold back.

I think this actually happens more than I totally realize. Probably with Sir too... Its like I fight to control the orgam, like it has to be on my terms. In reality I think this not only robs me of some it also takes some and makes them smaller than they actually could be.

How does one fix this?

How do I know that I am doing this? I feel it.

I reign in my voice, more often than not trying to be mute.
I take some of the vibration away so it will not be as intense.
I will clamp down myself instead of being loose and relaxed and letting it take over me.

In reading more about wet orgasms I believe I have learned that I have stopped them from happening.

However, I have achieved them in the past and not really realized what they where... in my young stupidity I thought I was wetting the bed. I now realize, through lack of smell it was actually a squirting orgasm. My head has now taken those away from me, and I would like to get it back on occasion :)

So something to work on.... who knew sex is so much work?!

Lets hear it for the toys

Hitachi... you are loud!

So we used it a few days ago and I kept thinking DAMN your LOUD. Takes awhile getting used to, Sir used the straight attachment and it was all ok but... I dunno, different and LOUD.

However the next time he used it I came in no time flat the minute he spread my lips apart and placed it on my clit. His fingers doing the spreading was my actual trigger. I was quite loud and he was quite amused afterwards *blush*

We haven't played with the g-spot attachment yet, so we still have something to look forward to.

We had a long rule discussion last night.

As much as I would like to type more, I think it is time to curl up with Sir and visit the sandman.

Weeeeeeeeee amazing fun!

Our we-vibe came and we had to wait 24 hours and keep it plugged in, that... sucked.

The next night Sir decided to try it out even though due to various reasons there had to be very little noise coming from our room.

He rigged up some chains to the bed and cuffed my wrists and ankles... played for a bit and inserted the we-vibe after using some lubricant. It was nice and pleasant but even better when he would place his hand on my mound kind of pressing it in, then it was ever so yummie.

Sir decided it was time to test out his new toy and pushed his way in, it was so nice but I was squirming so bad and I wanted to be fucked and fucked then and there... so much so I begged to be on top and told him that I wanted to fuck him. He gave me a few more fast strokes and I was so near coming when he pulled out I groaned. He unchained me and I climbed on top of him.

I should of re lubed him at this point but I forgot *blush*

I started riding him like no tomorrow, I know he came a couple of times... I tried to sit on top of him like I usually do but he was too large. He was super horny and he does get bigger at certain times... sounds weird but it is true. It was uncomfortable to sit straight up, so I leaned forward and started grinding on his hips until I started feeling that wonderful wave washing over me and I gave into it making little squeaking noises... at least in my head they where.

All I know is I was in heaven with a big orgasm and just when I thought it was done another kind of grasped my whole body and all my muscles tightened and it almost felt like I was sucker punched in the tummy the way I gasped in for it.. totally amazing and so strong like I have never had before in my life.

I jumped off and tore out the we-vibe not wanting anymore stimulation cuz I couldn't handle it. I found that spot where I realized that I had no control at all over my body and its orgasms and it was so totally new for me, deeper into subspace and I know Sir was close to another orgasm but he was enjoying my reactions... I think.. I dunno my head gets jumbled.

I just know at that moment I almost feared it... not being in control over it and what it would of been like if it had not come out at that moment.

I was riding a high that night and the next day and Sir was surprised when I didn't want to use it again. I said I was more than content... we ended up having sex anyway though... sans toys :)

The night after I used the we-vibe around his balls and gave him a blow job and he seemed to like it muchly. I have to be careful though because I have TMJ and it can really start hurting sometimes.

I think what blows my mind the most is... we only used the we-vibe on the low setting. It boggles thinking of the high setting.

So is it possible to love it and fear it at the same time? Cuz I do....

What there should be...

What there should be is a long post about our first session with our new toy but I think I am still processing everything in my head. It was quite an amazing night to be certain. More toys arrived today... which have gone unused just due to being contentedly happy already and.... well he has found this evil little look now that pops out quite often that I have never seen before. It is nice to have spent so many years with him and still find new things, wonder if he feels that way too?

So lets leave it as a post to say, the we-vibe is worth the money... and I really do need to post about it.

Hot manipulations

"You are evil you know."

I get a cocky, "Why is that?"

"You spread the hot oil all over my clit and made me come, even when I didn't want to... "

He states, "Yea well, I wanted you to have a big one."

He did his job well, but in afterthought it wasn't not wanting to have an orgasm it is not understanding it... how he can take the burning and make it feel so good that I come so hard when I really don't think I can.

It felt like he was switching back and forth between the hot oil on his fingers reapplying the heat and something cooler that would help cool me down. Orgasm getting ready to come then ducking away trying to protect my clit from the heat. Only he would have none of that and coax that orgasm further along until I had no choice but to give it to him. I have no complaints over how hard the orgasm is that is for sure.

We looked at decorative steel anal plugs the other day, he fancies the ones that have little chains attached to them so they can stick out of the top of the pants so that he could give it little tugs when we are out and about in public... as a little reminder... this ass is his.

The "Smart" Choice

Slipping in smart balls for the 3rd time is easier as I know "where" they should be. I also know that it is much easier to lay on the bed and put them in vs standing up somewhere and not getting them in right. I also adored the feeling of tightening my muscles and sucking them up into my cunt. It really didn't take long to get squirmy.

Luckily Sir was available by phone to text and ask permission to come, he said yes but I have to be in slave position when he arrives home after work, incoming pounding is expected in the near future.

But at the moment I have a semi-satisfied, just got off, puss.

Yes... use me more Sir!

I fulfilled my morning duties and went back to bed this morning, Sir was going to stay up despite the fact that he didn't get much sleep either.

Later I was woken to hard breaths in my ear and my ass and pussy being stroked. He had a lust air about him as he basically took what he needed for the day... I whispered the porn must have been good... he said it was and took off for the shower to start his day and leave for work.

I snuggled into the warm bed with a freshly fucked pussy, happy and content.

This evening ended with me on top of him as he decided to once again indulged in that which is his, which is great but... ahem... my pussy is getting sore :(

I used the smart balls for about an hour today. Time to tighten some muscles... rawr

Smartballs

Happiness is getting the email that the smartballs have been shipped.

Of course I wasn't real happy when I realized I had a ebay coupon I could of used on them. >.<

Happiness is also getting the new contract more up to speed, work on approval and then we will implement.

Yum

I am.. however... wondering just how naughty of a picture is "allowable" by the powers that be to post here?

Like the picture I have of my pussy shaved bald as can be with a chain snug tight between my pussy lips and... oh my I can still feel the coldness of the metal on my clit from that night... I love being "chain" bound.

Toys, contracts, clits OH MY

I have made some requests and sent them to Sir to look over. I am new at this stuff and I did talk them over with him first... at first he was surprised but then he seemed to enjoy the idea. We are working over a month contract of sorts to work on.

I also took some pictures for him this afternoon, twice as the first ones I took I accidentally deleted. They will only be posted if I get permission to do so. I am hoping he is proud of them to want to show off what he has.

I have learned today that clothespins hurt on a clit hood, and it is hard to leave it there long enough to get a picture for him... how do people do it??!

I am also quite interested in sensitizing gel and the fun factory smartballs.

We have had a problem in the past with going to long without sex, I am hoping with a few new daily tasks during the next month it will be a reminder that we are there for each other and need each other.

That and I need the sore muscles from being used... it feels so damn good.


Added: EEP... oh happy day we found some sensitizing gel at the store tonight.