Negotiation

Being that I got turned on by the nipple pain a couple hours later and took some pictures with the ball gag before I leaned over the bed on my handy dandy Hitachi, hiked up my dress and pretended he was behind me as I spread my ass cheeks apart and got off by grinding down on the hitachi..... I think I have lost my room for negotiation :(

Perhaps if I post a couple pics he will let me off easier?

I will start off with an old... Jewel pic that I should of posted months ago :(

He looked at his jewel placed inside my ass, and decided that he need a picture of his new jewel... with help from me. Obviously I didn't mind posing with how wet I was...

Red lips to silently tell you I will suck your cock whenever you want me too...
Drool to let you know I will always drool over you.

Through the looking glass...

My ouchie nipple :(

My nipple hurts yes... why is it that it turns me on so much when it does? I feel like I am in heat

Dear Sir... I am going to go get myself off again...

Just... Cuz

Bathtime with my purple barbells in :)

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Oh... Did I mention the ball gag came?

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So tell me... what is it about a shelf bra that makes wearing it so yummie?

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See, I'm still here....

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Sir has some requirements....

Through the looking glass

A Vow to Make Things Right

Making things right.

I made a vow last night to make things right. Sir was wonderful in his plannings and I totally dissed him. I was hurting some, I denied some... yet even when I wasn't hurting earlier in the day I ignored. Once more he knew I hurt and massaged me and I still denied. If I where to go back further I masturbated twice without him home ... without permission, and with the new clover clamps. I could get into the "why" of it all but in the end it doesn't matter.

In reading I realized that it wouldn't even be any fun to "punish" if there was no trying to please in the first place. I am pushing, and honestly in the forums I have been reading they do say ignore them if they push, they are supposed to remember and try to please.

I vowed to make things right.

This morning I took the pictures he has been demanding I take off and on for weeks. This morning I poured the hot oil on my fingertips and worked it into my clit. This morning I took the butt plug and poured the hot oil over it to coat it as I inserted it into my ass. I then sat on the bed with my legs crossed forcing it in further as I applied the clover clamps to my nipples and meditated.

I reminded myself that my clit is his and I used it without permission for my gratification, I reminded myself that I used the clamps even though we decided to use them for the first time on a alone day, and I used them to get off. I then reminded myself that the burning taking place in my ass was for refusing him to touch it last night... and I reminded myself of the look of disappointment on his face last night before we slept.

I will not shower and get ready for him to come home until after the burning has subsided.

Today is preparation... of my making things up to him.

I will make up a schedule of tackling RL events and he will come home to it waiting for him. In this document I will add various things of which he can choose for me to do or make his own demand.

I will put a smile on his face so he is pleased with me again. The next 24 plus hours will be his and I will go to the extreme to make up for my actions.

I am sorry Sir.

After Sir see's the new picture I took today I will share that if he so wishes as well. Or perhaps he will... we will see what happens

Set up to fail

It has been determined that Sir can be quite evil and plan on giving no permission yet making me come anyway... on purpose.

I felt bad and really tried not too, but it had been awhile and... I cannot remember the last time I had an orgasm like that, it kept going and going...

There is no more messing around, Sir is making sure I put on the cuffs at night around my wrists and he locks them on.

What else is coming? I am not yet quite sure...

Loving the belt

Hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving. Mine started out with very nice.

We worked more on our contract, updated, and changed. More livable and more unlivable in some ways, but nummy ways!

I am not even quite sure how last night started. I do know I wasn't in the mood and the next thing I knew I was so close to coming I had a hard time believing it. I am used to being that "hard" come girl... I dunno.

I got my ass spanked for a bit with his belt and a brush. I leaned over on a pillow and learned one thing, it is a lot easier on me that way. I don't feel it in my thighs so much. *frowns* Who wants easy?!

I was forbidden to come. The more I am forbidden the more I want to.

I don't know what happened but the me I used to know isn't the same as she used to be. It is has been harder to masturbate to orgasm for me alone now. With him now that permission is needed it takes some stress off or something and I seem to feel more or something. So in reality, taking orgasms away from me has made me had more orgasms? I have to process this more first before I can make much sense here. I just know I adore the ride.

I wonder silently to myself if he is getting off on how wet I become when he spanks me. I do remember over half way through him running his finger down my slit and dipping it in a bit and then commenting on how wet I was. It gives me shivers, something so delightfully naughty for him to call attention to how wet I get when he spanks me. Being vocal with me the wetter I get gets me even more wet... calling me on my horniness makes me more horny.

I cannot "feel" the spankin today though *frowns*

Thank you Sir but may I have another?

Roller Coasters and Wet T's

Our life has been an unsettling roller coaster. Totally abnormal events have poked away at what we where trying to put into place. Doubts and more questions.

I am also feeling a little comfort in a few peoples journals. Through others words I figure myself out more but also seeing that they are not all so young I feel uncomfortable being here... I really didn't realize how many older people where practicing and it puts me at ease... and makes me want to poke my head in the door a little more.

With that perhaps it is time to push myself a wee tad, or him? I got tired of waiting for permission to post the picture :) This is from a little photo set that I did for him, it got his attention quite nicely. I am thinking he liked the ones where I played with the clothes pin too, but I want more feed back...

I came hard today Sir, but I still want more...

Last night before I could fall asleep I woke up Sir and basically road him until I felt I succeeded in my goal of riding him until his balls where wet. He likes that and it has been awhile.

I then spent my morning before a nap watching nasty videos of women tied up and forced to orgasm and I came all over big daddy V. There was no permission to do it or anything just a need. I love forced orgasms and the thought of the taking of my body and making it do things beyond my will.

My ass feels better today, unfortunately.

I am yearning for a new butt plug *sigh* one that can be worn easier during the day under clothing. Ours has a round base and keeps sneaking out *growls*

I finally showed Sir the blog today and the posts, and helped him make his and set it up. He is very busy so probably will not write a lot but I am hoping upon hope I get some tasks and such to do to please him more often.

We had another play date about a week and a half ago that was simply yummie too. He put in a porn and made me take off all my clothes and lie on the couch with my pussy towards him and masturbate while he watched the porn. My favorite part is the collar attached to the nipple clamps and him banging me over and over with those fingers of his while he chewed on my nipple. I came so hard!

We ended up in his chair with me riding his dick and rocking back and forth while my clamps would rub against his chests and be very ouchie... and I ate it up! In trying to figure out what "I" am I think I am more of a pain slut when it comes to my nipples. However when he layed me over a vibrator and whipped my ass I came pretty damn hard too so maybe just a pain slut? I dunno what you would call it but I do know what I like.

He did a spank on the pussy the other night and that was a uber turn on too, more more more...... I didn't like the clothes pin on my pussy lips and he took them off... then I found myself wishing they where back on. *sigh* Maybe I just dont know what I want?