Real Minds Want to Know

I cant figure out why sometimes the smart balls stay where they are supposed to and sometimes they wanna slip out and drive me crazy :( Its like my PC muscles are having their own PMS or something!

I have also found that blow jobs are a lot faster if you fuck his fingers while sucking :) Followed by "hot sauce" and a hitachi O... and another question... Why can't the heat go away after the O! Its no fair that it still keeps burning >.<

Rituals impending... that is AFTER he finds his lost dice :D

Feel the heat

Analyzing my brain... if you don't like it, why do you want it?

The first time that hot oil touched my puss I was cussing and I don't think I stopped for a half hour. He felt my wrath, or rather heard it. I can't even remember if we had sex after that, I sure wasn't in the mood.

So he looks at me in dismay when we buy more... when I remember to buy some.

I was thinking more about the why of it all.

It isn't that its hot that turns me on, cuz DAMN it can get HOT.

I like him putting it on me because he knows I wont like it, but he does it anyway. Its like a little signal to my brain that that burning puss, lips, butt... is HIS and not mine. Silent messages. Everything that is burning is his to control.

Accidentally hurting me... like the first time the oil was used means nothing... just makes me irritable. BUT, if he KNOWS it is going to be hot and planned for me to feel it, it is a tremendous turn on.

When he puts some on his fingers and rubs my clit till I come it is amazing... because I don't understand how I can come but he takes it from me anyway... because its what he wants. I think it is to the point now where I can almost come easier with the hot oil because it is a mind fuck.

He had me put on the gel that is supposed to excite you before we left the house once and was surprised it did nothing. It really doesn't do much and when my head is busy it really isn't going to make me horny or make me think of my pussy. I think if he would of used the hot oil the reaction would of been one he wanted.

Heat would be the perfect substitute for noisy spankings when discipline is in order. Slap some on a clit or on a butt plug before it is used... make me be "normal" in front of kids... it would work wonders!

We went to a function the other night and I was wearing a thong. I don't usually wear underwear at all so needless to say I felt more in tune to my "sex." I liked it, a lot. I want more of that :)

Who has the upper hand now?

Evil wicked thoughts ran through my mind as I rolled him over to lay on his back and grabbed the heated massaging oil. Naughty nymph.

I poured it over him and the result of my efforts was met with more amusement than anything else. I figured why not share that hot stuff so he could see what it was like?! Wasn't quite working like I had anticipated so I worked it onto his balls as well making sure to get plenty there. "It isn't so bad," he says, "just a little warm here and the balls are kind of warm."

Thats it? I mean HELLO... he is supposed to be sensitive right?

I roll over and have my little hissy fit, no more hand job if that was the case.

Obviously I didn't quite think it through.... he pinned me down and fucked me hard and fast, and let me tell you I had used a lot of the oil on him so I was coated quite well. My clit was on fire along with other things, now when he was pumping it was ... well at least the air made it more livable... but after he came and started his long ever so slow thrust with lets see how far it can be burried I squealed like a lil piggy. Then it burned like crazy. He got off quite amused...

So yes, and hour later while he was snoring like a baby... my clit slowly returned to normal yet I was still awake because it hit one point where... well just moving made me so aware of my clit and pussy, swollen and freshly fucked... and now horny...

I try to sleep.... yet think of him taking me repeadely. *sigh*

I guess I learned not to do that, thinking about it now I realize it was a stupid idea...

Hot manipulations

"You are evil you know."

I get a cocky, "Why is that?"

"You spread the hot oil all over my clit and made me come, even when I didn't want to... "

He states, "Yea well, I wanted you to have a big one."

He did his job well, but in afterthought it wasn't not wanting to have an orgasm it is not understanding it... how he can take the burning and make it feel so good that I come so hard when I really don't think I can.

It felt like he was switching back and forth between the hot oil on his fingers reapplying the heat and something cooler that would help cool me down. Orgasm getting ready to come then ducking away trying to protect my clit from the heat. Only he would have none of that and coax that orgasm further along until I had no choice but to give it to him. I have no complaints over how hard the orgasm is that is for sure.

We looked at decorative steel anal plugs the other day, he fancies the ones that have little chains attached to them so they can stick out of the top of the pants so that he could give it little tugs when we are out and about in public... as a little reminder... this ass is his.

A Vow to Make Things Right

Making things right.

I made a vow last night to make things right. Sir was wonderful in his plannings and I totally dissed him. I was hurting some, I denied some... yet even when I wasn't hurting earlier in the day I ignored. Once more he knew I hurt and massaged me and I still denied. If I where to go back further I masturbated twice without him home ... without permission, and with the new clover clamps. I could get into the "why" of it all but in the end it doesn't matter.

In reading I realized that it wouldn't even be any fun to "punish" if there was no trying to please in the first place. I am pushing, and honestly in the forums I have been reading they do say ignore them if they push, they are supposed to remember and try to please.

I vowed to make things right.

This morning I took the pictures he has been demanding I take off and on for weeks. This morning I poured the hot oil on my fingertips and worked it into my clit. This morning I took the butt plug and poured the hot oil over it to coat it as I inserted it into my ass. I then sat on the bed with my legs crossed forcing it in further as I applied the clover clamps to my nipples and meditated.

I reminded myself that my clit is his and I used it without permission for my gratification, I reminded myself that I used the clamps even though we decided to use them for the first time on a alone day, and I used them to get off. I then reminded myself that the burning taking place in my ass was for refusing him to touch it last night... and I reminded myself of the look of disappointment on his face last night before we slept.

I will not shower and get ready for him to come home until after the burning has subsided.

Today is preparation... of my making things up to him.

I will make up a schedule of tackling RL events and he will come home to it waiting for him. In this document I will add various things of which he can choose for me to do or make his own demand.

I will put a smile on his face so he is pleased with me again. The next 24 plus hours will be his and I will go to the extreme to make up for my actions.

I am sorry Sir.

After Sir see's the new picture I took today I will share that if he so wishes as well. Or perhaps he will... we will see what happens

In the minds eye

Hands spreading the oil up and down my body as I lay on my stomach, fingers sliding over my back, my wrists crossed over my head, yearning for those hands to lose their way and kneed my breasts with those long strokes. He doesn't though... he leaves me wanting. Feeling him work the oil into my ass cheeks, wondering if this will be the day...

His hands propping up my hips as his knee works its way in spreading my legs, he moves his body between my legs and pulls me towards him, opening me with his hard cock and pushing his way in. Doesn't matter if I am ready or not, he opens me and pounds me until he is ready to explode inside of me, knowing my moans are a sure sign that the invasion was a wanted invasion.

Curled up spooning, feeling his wet cock behind me, my legs up as my thoughts go to my still tingling pussy lips. He runs his hands up and down my hips until he reaches down to my pussy, my legs, my body... betraying my wants as I position myself so he has easier access. He laughs at me and gives me 3 hard swats on the pussy and says in an amused voice, "Whats this!?, you think you get to come?"

"Shame on you naughty girl," He states as he grabs the hot oil from the nightstand and pours it into his hand, and he rubs it all over my pussy making sure my clit is doused with the heated oil and burning more with the friction of his fingers expertly handling my clit between them. "You do not seriously think you always get what you want do you? You will not come tonight, and if I hear any complaining out of you... you will not come tomorrow either." He forces my legs back shut and rolls me on my side again as we go back to spooning, knowingly trapping the heat between my legs to last longer.

My pussy on fire, nipples like little rocks proudly adorned with their new black rings, I moan softly trying not to make to much of a fuss and wiggle too much, not wanting to risk loosing tomorrows orgasm.

His hand reaches around holding my breast, I know how he must be feeling my rock hard nipple in the palm of his hand, he knows how horny I am.

"Time to simmer down and go to sleep pet," he states and he snuggles in for the night knowing that as he sleeps... I will be burning with desire for him.

In the minds eye...

Busted contract, lets heat things up a bit

The contract didn't succeed as hoped by either of us. I could list all of the reasons but essentially, non-normalcy ruled. Now I realize through life there is never the "right" time, but I am saying we dealt with some unusual even for us type of things.

I get sick, and it is hard to walk from one room the the other without wheezing, funeral, I get the flu, he gets the flu.

Yea kinda hard to wanna be intimate when you really feel like visiting the toilet to throw up.

We did have our moments tho :)

We talked a bit last night and plan to revise the contract more to suit "us" because we saw some problematic spots, we ordered some smart balls, and we ordered replacement nipple rings because Sir HATES the bars. We actually odered 3 sets :)

Last night started with a neck rub to get rid of my "kink", which led to showing him a couple of updated idea's and documents.... which led to showing him my love for Bang Bull Well of course this led to him getting even hornier than anticipated. I had showed him a tie her up scene that used spreader bars as well, nice spankings and floggings too!

This turned into him deciding that it was spread your legs time so he could play while he watched the movie. His fingers where still full of the massing heat oil, and started burning my clit in no time at all. It burns, it hurts... I hate heating stuff on my clit.. give me ice! anything... beat my ass, clamp my nips, just ... I really hate heat stuff :(

He didn't care. He kept playing.

I moved to straddling him with my ass towards him. I was more spread open, and he could watch the movie or watch me. He grabbed the finger tip massager and started on my clit. Honestly I dont even know everything he was doing down there it just started to feel good, real good... and feeling his hard cock on my pussy mound had me begging for orgasm in no time at all. It actually surprised me because he did have his fingers in my ass with the heated stuff on them but I think I had watered down that burning sensation from my pussy. He had me begging for quite awhile, at least in my world he did. When he finally gave permission it was a relief, and this mini pulses went through my body but they kept getting stronger and stronger. It felt so good!

I then sat up and slid him inside me and started to ride him with with my back still to him. He was able to grab my hips and force himself harder and further into me, and reach around and man handle my tits until he filled up my pussy with his load.

That was round one, round two was later in the evening and that was mostly just for him. I am not going to say it didn't feel good and around the time he was blowing his wad into me I wanted more and more to come all over his dick but.... it was kind of payback for an earlier confession :( he was nice enough to let me come the first time... I figured I shouldn't press my luck.

I have to revise the contract for his ok.

I was also given permission to post pictures I want to without his consent. He likes to be surprised, and I will probably be in more trouble for NOT posting pictures than posting some.

I gotta add tho, I really do NOT understand why women like that warming stuff >.< Tingle me yes... real nice stuff... however I am looking into various types of it but that warming stuff BURNS. Sir loves it on his dick tho.

You know your kinda screwed when you watch his eyes light up at the thought of punishment fucks in pussy and ass with the warming lube.

Contract or no contract, I now have to carry a small bottle of it in my purse at all times :( I am Hoping he adds the sensitization gel to the list cuz that stuff I like. However we discussed the possibility of me being ordered to the bathroom or something away from home if I act up to apply it myself.

Gotta keep reminding myself, my pussy is his. If he wants it to burn, it burns. If he wants it to tingle, it tingles. If he wants it iced, it is iced. My job is to keep my legs open for his wishes, and if I don't he makes sure they will not be closed.

Backrubs

This morning started with me not feeling to well but a backrub that was oh so good. He has the touch and is totally gifted in that area.

He then decided to start poking at my backside with his cock which I promptly clenched shut. He was using the warming backrub lotion and I HATE IT down that way and.... I believe he took great pleasure making sure it dripped down to my ass creating a burning sensation. The cool air makes it feel better but you keep your legs closed so more doesn't get there... He knows how to push my buttons.

We ended up in a little wrestling match with him flipping me over, pinning me down and fucking me with a hot dick with more warming oil on it till my pussy was on fire in a not so good for me way. Give me ice to turn me on, make me take a cold shower not a warm one to get me horny.

When he was done I just layed there with my legs open letting the air try and cool off the burning.

I was a little sassy yesterday and he was doing what was best for me so I would take care of myself but I didn't want that...

Lets just say he pretty much marked his turf this morning. Then tormented me by reading spanking things from the Bondage Library till he had me squirming and wet. I believe he is into orgasm denial at the moment, figuring I had my fill of them a couple nights ago... which is another story in itself.