What are you going to do?

Guilt snuck in followed by confession. Blaming him for something that I was part of too but I didn't admit my part at first.

He whispers in my ear, "What are you going to do about that, to make up for it?"

Tingling feelings rushing through my cunt wondering how a sentence can do that. "Finish the wrist cuffs that you where nice enough to say I could make to sleep in every night instead of the leather ones..."

"What else," he replies.

More tingles.... "Finish the contract and make it a longer length of time like you asked?"

"What else," he replies.

"Make sure the positions are practiced before we go to bed?"

"What else," he replies.

I am quiet, searching for the magic sentence he wants.

"What is a good pet going to do NOW to make up for it?"

It ends riding on top of Sir rocking back and forth, trying to slam onto his hips with the same force he is rising up and thrusting himself into me. Feeling him pinch my nipples harder and harder the closer he gets... my head imagining that this nipple pain wasn't for me but for him, because he wanted my nipples to hurt and throb when he filled up my pussy with this hot load of come.

I knew better than to ask to come myself.

I broke a rule.
I hid a rule.

I broke a rule.
I tried to hide it.
In hiding it, I made Sir feel bad.

I was wrong, very wrong, and more honest with him last night than I feel I have been in a very long time.

I am deeply sorry for what happened last night Sir.

Loving the belt

Hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving. Mine started out with very nice.

We worked more on our contract, updated, and changed. More livable and more unlivable in some ways, but nummy ways!

I am not even quite sure how last night started. I do know I wasn't in the mood and the next thing I knew I was so close to coming I had a hard time believing it. I am used to being that "hard" come girl... I dunno.

I got my ass spanked for a bit with his belt and a brush. I leaned over on a pillow and learned one thing, it is a lot easier on me that way. I don't feel it in my thighs so much. *frowns* Who wants easy?!

I was forbidden to come. The more I am forbidden the more I want to.

I don't know what happened but the me I used to know isn't the same as she used to be. It is has been harder to masturbate to orgasm for me alone now. With him now that permission is needed it takes some stress off or something and I seem to feel more or something. So in reality, taking orgasms away from me has made me had more orgasms? I have to process this more first before I can make much sense here. I just know I adore the ride.

I wonder silently to myself if he is getting off on how wet I become when he spanks me. I do remember over half way through him running his finger down my slit and dipping it in a bit and then commenting on how wet I was. It gives me shivers, something so delightfully naughty for him to call attention to how wet I get when he spanks me. Being vocal with me the wetter I get gets me even more wet... calling me on my horniness makes me more horny.

I cannot "feel" the spankin today though *frowns*

Thank you Sir but may I have another?

Busted contract, lets heat things up a bit

The contract didn't succeed as hoped by either of us. I could list all of the reasons but essentially, non-normalcy ruled. Now I realize through life there is never the "right" time, but I am saying we dealt with some unusual even for us type of things.

I get sick, and it is hard to walk from one room the the other without wheezing, funeral, I get the flu, he gets the flu.

Yea kinda hard to wanna be intimate when you really feel like visiting the toilet to throw up.

We did have our moments tho :)

We talked a bit last night and plan to revise the contract more to suit "us" because we saw some problematic spots, we ordered some smart balls, and we ordered replacement nipple rings because Sir HATES the bars. We actually odered 3 sets :)

Last night started with a neck rub to get rid of my "kink", which led to showing him a couple of updated idea's and documents.... which led to showing him my love for Bang Bull Well of course this led to him getting even hornier than anticipated. I had showed him a tie her up scene that used spreader bars as well, nice spankings and floggings too!

This turned into him deciding that it was spread your legs time so he could play while he watched the movie. His fingers where still full of the massing heat oil, and started burning my clit in no time at all. It burns, it hurts... I hate heating stuff on my clit.. give me ice! anything... beat my ass, clamp my nips, just ... I really hate heat stuff :(

He didn't care. He kept playing.

I moved to straddling him with my ass towards him. I was more spread open, and he could watch the movie or watch me. He grabbed the finger tip massager and started on my clit. Honestly I dont even know everything he was doing down there it just started to feel good, real good... and feeling his hard cock on my pussy mound had me begging for orgasm in no time at all. It actually surprised me because he did have his fingers in my ass with the heated stuff on them but I think I had watered down that burning sensation from my pussy. He had me begging for quite awhile, at least in my world he did. When he finally gave permission it was a relief, and this mini pulses went through my body but they kept getting stronger and stronger. It felt so good!

I then sat up and slid him inside me and started to ride him with with my back still to him. He was able to grab my hips and force himself harder and further into me, and reach around and man handle my tits until he filled up my pussy with his load.

That was round one, round two was later in the evening and that was mostly just for him. I am not going to say it didn't feel good and around the time he was blowing his wad into me I wanted more and more to come all over his dick but.... it was kind of payback for an earlier confession :( he was nice enough to let me come the first time... I figured I shouldn't press my luck.

I have to revise the contract for his ok.

I was also given permission to post pictures I want to without his consent. He likes to be surprised, and I will probably be in more trouble for NOT posting pictures than posting some.

I gotta add tho, I really do NOT understand why women like that warming stuff >.< Tingle me yes... real nice stuff... however I am looking into various types of it but that warming stuff BURNS. Sir loves it on his dick tho.

You know your kinda screwed when you watch his eyes light up at the thought of punishment fucks in pussy and ass with the warming lube.

Contract or no contract, I now have to carry a small bottle of it in my purse at all times :( I am Hoping he adds the sensitization gel to the list cuz that stuff I like. However we discussed the possibility of me being ordered to the bathroom or something away from home if I act up to apply it myself.

Gotta keep reminding myself, my pussy is his. If he wants it to burn, it burns. If he wants it to tingle, it tingles. If he wants it iced, it is iced. My job is to keep my legs open for his wishes, and if I don't he makes sure they will not be closed.

Changes

One minute until the contract is valid.

Ding

We have a strict contract for the next month. I found a contract online and tailored it to our needs and what we are looking for and presented it to my Owner. He made changes and we worked with it until we both agreed with all items. It is complex and detailed, with what is expected of me as his pet and with what is expected from him as my Owner.

Many daily items are changing with what I am required to do. Required is a funny word, its what I want to do, need it. It will help me move forward in other areas of my life as well.

I found myself masturbating twice today and promptly text Sir to tell him, he seemed very happy. The first time was ok, but just ok. The second time was amazing. I was reading Collared: my life as a slave in one of her older stories about anal sex and being taken, my mind traveled back in time to a few short days ago and I could feel Sir fucking my ass... in the story he was saying "Mine" as he fucked her and my head turned everything around with my Owner pounding my ass saying mine over and over so I would never forget it and I came so hard I squeeled. I am usually silent and very "get the job done" when I masturbate so I dont have the bigger ones that often. It was long and intense.

Sir came home from work and I read him the contract and we discussed a few things before I had to leave the house. He then demanded me to bare my pussy and then fucked me. He ended up fingering me some more and rubbing my clit and I was oh so close before the blasted phone rang. We each then went our seperate ways.

Our new ritual, me tucking him in and presenting myself to him. He will finger me wherever he wishes or use and object. It is his wish to go to bed nightly with the smell of my pussy on his fingers, not necessarily and orgasm for me but I love his touch. "Make me come" he replied. With great enthusiasm I mounted him and rode him, grinding my clit into his body and it felt oh so good, and he came deep inside me and I milked him with all I could muster... until my pussy and I where, "Dismissed" and I had to get off him. Trying hard not to wiggle and push myself into the bed with my hips and wishing the bed sheets ........ ugh....

I came twice today, and so did he. It should be fair right? *groans*

I dont want to be able to orgasm every time, I want every orgasm to be his... I am just starting to realize how hard that will be... butI really want someone that will say NO PET, not today... and actually NOT get what I want.

I need to come up with some homemade toys, fix the toybox, learn positions, and... the daily theme for the day will be officially "Wet and Lubed Wednesday" I am to make sure my pussy is always wet and my ass is very easy to penitrate for the day. He will be checking to make sure off and on.

On the flip side I realized how hard it will be on him to remember some of the items and be making corrections. It is kind of a full time job too really.

Realizations

I worked on our contract, which of course got me very wet and thinking of waking him... I want to, I want to show him the contract and have him belt my ass with welts for waking him up so late when he has to work in the morning and.. and..... I dont want him to let me cum, I want him to make me wait till he is ready for it... to enjoy not giving me what I want.

He created the bondage monster in me.

Uncomfortable in ones body, that is me... when he ties me up it isn't about what I want, its what he wants. I cant stop him from anything. Expose my sex and make comments and I squirm. Blindfolded with the lights on knowing he is taking in every part of me, and I have no choice is amazing.

Dont even get me started on what it feels like to get a backrub and then feel his fingers trace circles around my ass and slowly push it in watching me pucker around him.... later his thumbs slip in my ass spreading me.

Slow, not giving me what I want... I love that. Torment me... pretend you dont want me while I am spread open and tied for your viewing pleasure, yes my wonderful Owner, that is your fault too from the first time you tied me and left the room with the vibrators inside me making me cum over and over... propped on that pillow that seemed to turn so damn hard under me when my nipples turned like little hard rocks that where pierced. Laying on them when I am that horny hurts so bad... or should I say hurts so good and makes me even more wet. Funny part about that night was I didn't know for sure he was gone, I couldn't see. For all I knew he was watching me, watching me hump the vibrator thinking what a nastly little slut I was.

Take me

Take a look inside at the real me inside my head, use me ... but make me wait... beg for that orgasm, I dont want to get everything I want Sir, I want to take everything you want to give me.

*visions of being tied to those ceiling bolts you keep talking about*